6/24 Today I will...

Good morning everyone!  It looks like another beautiful day today, which is good because it is suppossed to rain the next two days so hopefully everyone can get out and enjoy it!  Well, here goes.  Today I will....drink 100 ounce of water/CL, work out sore muscles (this may just be some light stretching), only 1 snack and that is only if I can not handle the hunger and it is more than 2 hours before my next meal, be honest and consistent in food journal, and get to bed earlier.  Yesterday I...drink at least 100 ounce of fluid (CL and water)--I only got in about 85 or 90 ounces, go to yoga and destress--went to a yoga sculpt class and it helped destress me, but my legs and abs are sure not happy today, send get well card to my uncle (he shattered one arm and broke the other after being bucked off one of his horses this weekend)--yup put it in the mailbox this morning, prepare dinner for tomorrow (making a crockpot meal so need to cook meat ahead of time)--nope I didn't get home until almost 9pm last night, and get to bed at a decent time (11:00 pm would be an improvement)--I got to bed around midnight, which is a little earlier than the night before. 

Good Tuesday morning!! It's looking like the rain doesn't want to wait until tomorrow up here... we might get lucky though!  Today I WILL: - get in my vitamins - water! - track my food - check my protein intake and stay away from buffets!!!        * 18 oz CL water        * 1/4C egg salad made with lite Miracle Whip (5gr protein)
       * 4 Kashi crackers (3gr protein)        * 16 oz water
       * Protein shake with extra scoop protein (35gr)        *1 oz shrimp with ****tail sauce (11gr)        * 2 crackers and egg salad (4gr)        * 18 oz water        * 2oz BBQ pork chop (15gr)        *1/4C mixed peas/baby corn/ carrots and snow pods (1gr)        *20oz coffee @ creamer        *18oz water - boogie my tush down the road - clean and rearrange the living room - dogs to the vet Yesterday I: - drink water like it's going out of style!     Did about the same as Sunday.  Still room for improvement. - remember the damn vitamins - my goodness it's not rocket science!     I DID IT!  lol  good grief  :)  Such a little thing but so critical to our success!!
- eat right and track it!     Things weren't too bad until we ended up at the buffet.  Scott wanted me to meet his mom so instead of Chinese we headed to the casino.  I NEED to stay away from them.  The food intake ends up being high as it's a bit of this and a bit of that and all those bits add up fast!  I also tend to indulge in dessert...  I don't do that at home or a normal restaurant.        * 2 cups coffee
       * chicken thigh
       * 1-2T each KFC potatoes, beans and coleslaw        * Black Bear Buffet = 1 ravioli, marinara sauce on it; 2T mashed with gravy; 1oz roast beef; 3 baby carrots; 1/2 potato stick; *hangs head* a piece of carrot cake.        * SF popsicle - COOK so I *CAN* eat right     I boiled eggs but got a call from Brianna that she needed to go to the doc and needed a ride but they are ready to be peeled and made into egg salad!  I forgot how good that was and it sure sounds good!! - walk my tush off and boogie down the road... and bring back a bouquet of lilacs on the last trip!     Did my walk - the time goes so much faster while chattering away on the phone  :)  I'm a bit breathless but that's ok.  and didn't get the lilacs...  maybe today  :) - ignore the negative and shine forth with the positive!!!     You are darn right I did!  I kept a smile going even through the crap  :)  Darn proud of myself and it makes me feel so much better!

Good job getting your vitamins in yesterday!  I know that it is easy to forget them if I am in a hurry in the morning, but like you said it something vital to remaining healthy.  Last night I put mine in a little daily pill box so they were easier to grab and go in the morning!  Also, good job staying positive I think that it will help keep you sane until you can leave him.  I hope you too can have a nice warm sunny day too!

I have my vitamins in a little container - it DOES make it easier  :)  Got my egg salad made so enjoying salad and crackers for breakfast  :)  Trying to stay upbeat and find productive things to do Sun's out! *hugs*

Hi ladies!  My energy as at an all-time low today.  I am so tired.  And I'm feeling really emotional.  I cried myself to sleep last night because I was feeling stomach hunger again last night.  This isn't supposed to be happening (at least it's not what I expected would happen).    I see my dr. though in the morning and I hope that he can help me make some sense of this.  Anyway... Today I will... 1) Drink at least 80oz. of water. 2) Use my coping skills to maintain emotional stability and trust that the answers I need will come in time.  I cannot force this process and I *do* have the strength I need to work through it. 3) Leave work a bit early and go home and get some additional rest. 4) Go for a short walk with DH this evening. 5) Print out my food journal so that I have it for the appointments I have on Wednesday and Thursday. Yesterday I... 1) Stay at work all day unless my therapist calls and can see me this afternoon - I worked from 8:30-4:00pm and then did another hour of work from home that evening.  Therapy appointment is on Thursday. 2) Drink at least 80oz of water (this should be easy now that I'm back on my routine) - It wasn't quite as easy as I anticipated, but I got it done. 3) Get in some form of exercise that does not include housework or shopping (this is *not* exercise no matter how much I try to rationalize it) - put in an exercise DVD last night.  It was beyond my ability for right now and I quickly tired and stopped doing it.    I need to stick with walking or water aerobics right now. 4) Start getting some work done instead of doing person stuff while at work.  - Yes, I got quite a bit of work done yesterday.  Not as much as I had hoped, but still quite a bit.

I am sorry to hear that you are not feeling well today, I too am moving a bit slow, but am on my second bottle of Crystal Light Energize which has caffiene so I am starting to wake up.  I am glad you are pulling out your tool box and using your coping skills!  Hopefully you will be able to get some solid answers to help you figure out what is going on right now.  I too stuck with water aerobics and walking for the first couple of months after surgery, but after I had lost about 50 or 60 pounds I was able to move more and could do the group fitness classes and dvds, now I am able to be right up there with everyone else it is amazing what consistent exercise can do!  I am sure you already know this but exercise releases endorphins so definitley try to go for that walk today (maybe even see if you can get a little walk in on your lunch break if possible) it may help you feel better.  I hope your day gets better.  Love & hugs! Nicole

Some days it's just impossible to get your motor running.  This too shall pass  :)  I went through a time of super intense emotions shortly after surgery... depression, anxiety and the constant weeping.  It does get better but I did take the time and go take to a therapist.  it helped  :) Please let us know what your doc has to say!!  I hope he can help you through what's happening and explain things in a way that make sense to you. You still aren't that far out yet... make sure to get your rest and like Nicole mentioned, a short walk will do wonders! *hugs*

Thanks Nicole!  I'm not used to being in a funk and I just need to acknowledge that it's OK to feel a little down during this time and know that I will work my way through it.  I just have to take good care of myself.

That is very wise. I know several people who experienced some depression after their surgery I was lucky enough not to have anything too bad, but I also had my mom and dad right there making sure things didn't get too bad either.

heh - I *talk* everything out with everyone in my support system.  It probably gets old for some people in it, but they never say so.  Everyone's so sweet about it.  My issues with depression have been well managed for over 15 years now and being a helping professional myself I have to make sure that mentally and emotionally I'm on top of it.  I can't bring my own crap into my work.  This is why I've got to not let these emotions slide right now. I've got to take care of them and address them.  I guess I've always known that when it came time to doing this work that it wouldn't be easy, but I didn't expect to feel quite so fragile since I'm usually so strong.  Lori, thanks for sharing that you went through it too post-op.  I'm guessing that what I'm feeling is pretty normal and I just need to keep talking it through.  Glad to hear that you're eating your egg salad.  That sounds good.  It's almost inspiring me to try an egg again (since I'm so sick of cheese).  Maybe for dinner tomorrow night. Anyway, thanks you two for your support.  Tomorrow will be a better day for me.