Freaking out...I need your help (not too long)

OK ladies (and gents) I knew I was a little nervous about my up-coming RNY, and had a final appointment with my surgeon on Thursday and was feeling great about things. MUCH better! Then, last night something struck me and... I paniced, started sobbing and told my husband I couldn't bear to think of leaving him or my baby (age 14)! WTF? Where did that come from? I hadn't been worried about this at all until last night. (I should also mention that I have a bit of a fear of death and dying in general but it hadn't worried me AT ALL until last night).

DH said that if I was this upset maybe I should cancel and that he didn't want to "assure me" everything would be ok because on the off chance it wasn't he couldn't live with him self telling me it would be fine and then...omg! That didn't help either!

Then I went downstairs and sat with (and held) my baby while we watched a movie. He said he didn't know what he'd do without me...he would be devistated without me (aaawwww such a sweet boy) but that even though he was a little worried for me, he knew it would be ok and think of how many things we would be doing together next summer. I can not even begin to tell all of you what a wonderful son I have ...

Feeling a little better this morning, but still have a small case of the "FREAK OUT'S". I know that I'd be kidding myself to say I could do it on my own and that I'd end up right back here a year from now...I do NOT want to cancel. I know the risks outweigh the benfits here and I have to remember why I ended up here in the first place. I also think I have a little fear of the unknown of life after surgery. You can only read and be told so much without just having to live this life to really know what it's like. I think I just need my new OH friends to send a little reassurance my way. Thanks for letting me spout.

Sounds like you're totally normal! There is such a thing we affectionately call the ''two week freak'' around here, so you're right on time!

Big Hugs!!!

You are going through the same phase that I think the majority of us have experienced.  I felt like I was on a roller coaster of emotions.  Yes, you can die, yes, you can live and have a longer, healthier, happier life with your husband and child.  Stay positive, trust in your higher power, and ride the roller coaster with your eyes open.  You did the right thing....reach out for support from those who've started their journeys and lived to tell about it.  Blessings to you.

I felt the same way! My husband reminded me of the stats that I gave him about dying while in sugery and the stats of dying while obese. This is normal I went through it too!! It shows you are well informed and know the risks. One question I asked my doctor was how many people have passed away while having this. He said none... so that helped ease my worries. Freak out it's okay it shows you are taking this seriously!

There are 3 surgeons at my clinic and my Dr. told me that they have done 5000 surgeries and have lost 2 patients...I think those are pretty good odds.

Thanks for letting me know I'm normal..I was beginning to worry. This is the first I've heard about the 2 week freak out! lol...

Sounds pretty good and you don't know the conditions that the paitents entered with either.

Heidi....sorry to say but this is normal!!

You have done your research...you know what you need to do.

Sending a few hugs and prayers your way.....connie d

Sorry - gotta do this - HIJACK

Connie - your new avatar is FABULOUS.  You are looking so HOT!  What a thinspiration ;)

Thank you Lois...thinspiration...hahahahha..that is cute!!

Hugs, connie d

Yes, it's very common to have a freak out a few weeks before surgery.  When I asked my surgeon who many deaths he's had, it was only one!  That really put my mind at ease.  Just take a deep breath and remember the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.