It was hard to let go some of the old me...the one I still hadn't let go of on the inside
Hi everyone :)
So last week I decided that the huge mound of clothes that I couldnt wear was rapidly getting larger with the new additons I have purchased pre-op. I literally had $1000's of Lane Bryant inventory sitting on my bedroom floor. Alot of it is stuff I havent been able to wear for a looooong time but I just couldnt part with. Everytime I tried to go through it the "keep" pile was still larger than the "dont keep" pile. Since everything is larger sizes and Im hopefully not going back down that road I decided to donate them. I washed it all, and folded them and laid them all on my bed gettng ready to put them in bags. Each piece I put in the bag stabbed at my heart. There were some memory attached to each article. Even though I knew it was silly, they were just clothes, I felt sad getting rid of them. I tried to reason with myself that I shouldnt be attached to material things when I realized...I was finally letting go of the old me. The one that I still saw until that very day.
When people have asked me "have you seen how small youve gotten?" I told them I didnt see it. I really didnt. I could tell in the clothes I bought, and the numbers on the scale but I really didnt see the new me...until then. I packed up 12 bags if clothes to drop off to goodwill. I pulled out my wedding pictures from a year and a half ago and started looking. Then I felt a new shock...I didnt recognize myself. I literally felt like I was looking at someone else. I could not believe that the person in the picture was me. I just look so different, but I dont feel different.
Either way, I like the new me and Im glad that im a new me...in a smaller and healthier package.
I just thought Id share my lil wow moment that I had with myself :)
So last week I decided that the huge mound of clothes that I couldnt wear was rapidly getting larger with the new additons I have purchased pre-op. I literally had $1000's of Lane Bryant inventory sitting on my bedroom floor. Alot of it is stuff I havent been able to wear for a looooong time but I just couldnt part with. Everytime I tried to go through it the "keep" pile was still larger than the "dont keep" pile. Since everything is larger sizes and Im hopefully not going back down that road I decided to donate them. I washed it all, and folded them and laid them all on my bed gettng ready to put them in bags. Each piece I put in the bag stabbed at my heart. There were some memory attached to each article. Even though I knew it was silly, they were just clothes, I felt sad getting rid of them. I tried to reason with myself that I shouldnt be attached to material things when I realized...I was finally letting go of the old me. The one that I still saw until that very day.
When people have asked me "have you seen how small youve gotten?" I told them I didnt see it. I really didnt. I could tell in the clothes I bought, and the numbers on the scale but I really didnt see the new me...until then. I packed up 12 bags if clothes to drop off to goodwill. I pulled out my wedding pictures from a year and a half ago and started looking. Then I felt a new shock...I didnt recognize myself. I literally felt like I was looking at someone else. I could not believe that the person in the picture was me. I just look so different, but I dont feel different.
Either way, I like the new me and Im glad that im a new me...in a smaller and healthier package.
I just thought Id share my lil wow moment that I had with myself :)
I can see why getting rid of all those clothes would be hard. I bet I'll have a hard time with it too. I've got 3 standing clothes racks in the basement and a jam packed walk in closet with all clothes size 20-28. I know buying clothes made me feel better, and I've been doing really well not buying anything new since deciding to have surgery. I hope to sell most of my fat clothes on in "lots" on Ebay after I'm out of that particular size. Too much good stuff, nice stuff, expensive stuff to just give it away.
Congratulations on your sucess so far and in letting go of those 12 bags of clothes! That's huge!
Congratulations on your sucess so far and in letting go of those 12 bags of clothes! That's huge!
Kristy (weight loss below does not include 16lbs lost during pre WLS diet)
START: 325 Day of Surgery :309 GOAL: 180
Hi, and congrat's on the smaller size......
Your post brought tears to my eye's....I remember when I had to get rid of all my BIG clothes.....It was hard, I did the same thing with keep piles and rid piles.....I finally put everything in the rid pile.......This journey is amazing.......And you will have alot more rid piles.......I have gone from a 20/22 to a size 5/6/8......So have had MANY rid piles.....It gets easier........
Again, congrats.......Kelly
Your post brought tears to my eye's....I remember when I had to get rid of all my BIG clothes.....It was hard, I did the same thing with keep piles and rid piles.....I finally put everything in the rid pile.......This journey is amazing.......And you will have alot more rid piles.......I have gone from a 20/22 to a size 5/6/8......So have had MANY rid piles.....It gets easier........
Again, congrats.......Kelly
Congratulations on getting rid of the clothes and enjoying your smaller size! It is so exciting to shrink out of our big clothes, but it was hard for me, too. I am a total clothes HOG!! Once I had lost about 70+ lbs, our church had a huge garage sale. I ended up donating 15 bags of my clothes, some with tags still on!! It was a great feeling, but a scary one too. Keep getting rid of things as you shrink - it's a good thing to do for yourself, and it removes temptation to keep things "just in case" we start gaining.
It is so fun now to go shopping!! I went from a 20-22 to an 8, and it feels fabulous! And it's a lot cheaper! I get tons of deals now! Best wishes to you! Keep up the good work!
It is so fun now to go shopping!! I went from a 20-22 to an 8, and it feels fabulous! And it's a lot cheaper! I get tons of deals now! Best wishes to you! Keep up the good work!
I honestly can't say I mourned most of it - I'm the anti-pack rat, something of a "minimalist". I LOVED getting rid of the CRAP I'll never have a need for again! The only ones that hurt were the more expensive things, like two black leather coats I gave to Swapkins this fall. They will be hard for me to replace, 'cuz I'm a bit of a tightwad, too.
(Funny, and somehow disturbing thing about those coats? They were given to me!! I didn't have to pay for them, I LOVED them, and now if I want a new one, I'm gonna have to BUY it!!!)
Sometimes, it sucks being me...
(Funny, and somehow disturbing thing about those coats? They were given to me!! I didn't have to pay for them, I LOVED them, and now if I want a new one, I'm gonna have to BUY it!!!)
Sometimes, it sucks being me...
Imperfect does not = unsuccessful
Wow - what a great post! TY for sharing your thoughts and what you were going through. I cannot wait to have that moment of packing up my current closet and replacing with smaller sized clothing, but I hadn't thought about the emotional connection. Makes a lot of sense.
Congratulations on working your tool! You look wonderful.
Congratulations on working your tool! You look wonderful.
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