Tell me.....
Post-surgery: breezing up and down stairs. I'm amazed every time that I can do it. Doing Pilates ~ never thought I could. From a size 26 to a 6/8, now wearing the same size as my skinny niece and my 16 yo dauthters skinny friend. It doesn't seem real. I have dreams where I'm fat again. I find myself asking friends what size they wear to compare myself.....am I really that size??? I see it in the mirror but can't believe it's me.
~ SANDY ~ 5'9" HW 291/SW 274/GW 174/CW 155
Starting BMI 40.4 Extremly Obese ~ Current BMI 22.8 Normal
Post op - I won't repeat the whole story here, but on my profile, my post from September 15, 2007, was a big brought-me-to-tears moment.
Funny how we don't see these moments coming, yet how significant they are!
Imperfect does not = unsuccessful
The thing that makes me cry.. Well there are many to list but I won't go on and on. The biggest thing that makes me cry is knowing right now that I can't have kids and what makes me so mad at myself is that my hygen is not what it could be because I can't reach cuz of all the fat in the way or all the fat folds. I hate how I've let myself go I used to be the girl that wouldn't leave the house without make up on and my hair done and So help me God I woulnd't ever be caught dead in swaet pants.. Now you look in my closet and you can't find a single pair of jeans. Another big moment for me is when I broke the seat in my car and the guy at the shop told me that it would be 500 for a new seat and he told me it was expensive because I was so heavy that he recomened a strong sturdy seat. I am 24 for crying out loud Not being comfortable in public hurts too I was out on the town with friends for my birthday and I didnt enjoy myself at all cuz I kept thinking that everyone was looking at me or talkin about me 
I can't wait for them days to be over!! its almost like its a dream that won't come but I'm almost only a month away!!!
