One Month Out - Reflections, Realizations, and Respect
As of today, one month out from surgery, I find myself doing a lot of reflecting.
Friday mornings, a local group of us DS'ers do a weigh in via the virtual world with eachother. I really hadn't thought about my progress until the lady who tracks the spreadsheet for us pointed out that I had lost 30.2 pounds, which amounted to about 7.4 pounds per week. I had to stop and realize that I had never lost 30 pounds before on any diet plan. And I had to respect my body and my surgery and realize again, that it is working. It just takes time.
I have not complained that I wasn't losing fast enough or as much as so & so, because I made a promise to myself that if I had WLS, I wouldn't do that. That my body is unique and individual and comparing would only drive me bonkers. So I haven't done it. The one week where I lost inches but not pounds, yes, it was hard to step on the scale and see that the number had not changed. But as soon as I put my pants on that morning, I knew what I was dealing with. They were loose. That meant I had lost inches that week instead. And my body was readjusting. And the scale reflected that this morning.
Emotionally, the first two weeks I found to be the most difficult. I learned that no matter what, I had to slow down my eating during a meal. And I needed to eat something every 2 - 3 hours or I would be too hungry when I finally had a meal. If I ate too fast, I got a lead balloon feeling in my chest or I would vomit. Neither is pleasant that's for sure. So I am still learning but it is getting better.
My incision has really healed wonderfully. In a few spots along the incision line, you cannot even tell my flesh was cut. I am really impressed with how it is healing. I am using Bio Oil on it with the hopes the permanent scar is minimal in noticeability.
I still look at my ring finger on my left hand and tear up knowing I had to have my wedding ring cut off a month before surgery, but as my fingers shrink, I also know that I cannot wait for the day I can get that ring re-sized and put back together so I can wear it again! That will be a wonderful blessing!
Ultimately, the first month of my journey has been relatively smooth going. I am very grateful to Dr. Buchwald! My heart just swells when I think of how improved my life will be because of his surgical skills!!!
~Looking forward to Month #2~
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