I Gave In

Hi Folks,

After a few days of not so good food choices (graham crackers are the total enemy right now), and some reflecting on the last few weeks I gave in and called my psychiatrist today to talk about doing a medication change.  Typically when my depression level increases to this point my body only wants carbs (I think it is trying to produce more seratonin). 

I am tired of feeling like something that the dog has dragged around in its mouth for a week and dropped on the sidewalk.  I am tired of hiding these feelings from everyone and always putting on a happy face.  I am tired of feeling like a failure at everything I try.  Right now if I had it my way I would curl up in my bed and not come out for a month or 2, or 3, or 4, or never.  I HATE feeling this way. 

Sorry for being such a downer on this beautiful day that God has made for us.

Reenie

Bless your heart.  If you need chemical intervention, then by all means, get it tweaked so that you have a smile on your face AND in your heart!!!

HUGS 

Don't be sorry for being a downer!!! Everyone has their days... or weeks! Hopefully the call to the doctor and medication change will provide you with the pick-me-up that you need. Or at least hopefully typing your thread out here provided you with a little bit of relief!

We all know this process isn't easy (although wouldn't it be nice if it was?!), and you are entitled to feel the way you do- you're only human for goodness sakes!! But all in all, don't beat yourself up over a few days of bad food choices. Dust yourself off and jump back on! And plus, look on the bright side. You aren't a failure! I'm sure you have lost a lot weight since your surgery AND it even says in your signature that you've beat cancer- *twice*!!! Now that takes a pair of you-know-whats!

Hang in there! We'll get you through it!

I understand you EXACTLY!!! Take care of yourself and hope to see you soon!

Reenie darling, VENT go ahead and VENT. This is a good place to do it. You know yourself better then we do and if you feel, you need more help, by means get it.
Love you girl.
Cheryl 

Reenie...we all have our moments...you are handling this just right. Know that we all care about you and are here for you at anytime. Nothing wrong with venting...this is the right place for it!!

(((HUGS))) sweetie......connie d

Reenie,
I can relate to the depression, so first of all don't apologize. But I think the weather changing might help all of us here in Minn. and Wisc. it has been a long winter.
I know the chemical changes need to be addressed also, so you have made a smart decision there. All I can give you are e-mail (((((hugs))))) and an ear to listen.
Best of luck Reenie and know that you have lots of OH buddies!!
Cheryl

Good for you in recognizing that you need some help.  You are not a failure, that's for sure.  A very busy lady, that's for sure.  No curling up in bed for you - I'm going to send the zipper club over to your house.

Get better soon

Thanks Linda!  Please don't send the Zipper Gang over, then I might actually have to show them my "real" zipper!!  I did get an appointment for tomorrow morning at 7:15, so hopefully some relief will be in sight.

Reenie