I've got the blues

I'm not sure if what I'm feeling is just seasonal blues or lack of confidence. I've posted before about being the YW President. I really want things to go well for the girls in my Ward. I let them plan activities and stuff, for the most part they are active in meetings and stuff, but I just feel like I'm disconnected. I've tried to work it out....I mean when I'm with other teens, they think I'm pretty cool. But I get this nagging feeling that they just don't think I'm all that fun. Maybe I'm trying too hard or because I'm in authority they can't be themselves. I've also thought that perhaps my age (53 years) is a factor. Maybe they just think I'm old. I don't really want to be a "friend" role in their lives because that isn't my role, but I see them joke around with younger women in the Ward and yet they treat me differently and more distant. I'm beginning to think that they would prefer to have someone more hip...which believe me, I truly am pretty hip. I teach school and I know and see a lot of what they are all going through in the real world of youth. When I was first called, they couldn't believe that I would hike up mountains with them or wade into an ice cold river (which I did) or ventured into a dark skinny cave on a whim. At that time, the girls told me that they couldn't believe that I was willing to do some kind of crazy things. When my own kids were teens, they always brought their friends home because I was motherly but in no way uptight. I truly am not an uptight person about things. My kid's friends liked coming to our home because they thought I was funny and cool. So, I don't how to reach these girls. There is a couple of the girls that really like being around me, but its bugging me that I'm not reaching some of the others. I know I'm rambling here and I apologize for that. I don't think I'm really clear, but I'm trying to figure this whole thing out. Thank you for letting me vent. Merry Christmas to you all. I'm so grateful for our Savior's love and the opportunity to celebrate his life. Christy