Well, folks, I should have posted this last night and am sorry I didn't. So here goes. I seem to be developing another stricture. This will make #7, I believe. I did not have the surgery because of weight and it is a bit of a story so if you are interested in reading about it, it is more or less on my profile page. I didn't expect to lose any weight and every one of my 94lbs that I have lost I am extremely grateful for. I actually delight in them. Well, last week, when I spoke with my GI doctor, he mentioned that my surgeon was going to try surgery again to remake my pouch. I don't want more surgery! Not yet! Ok, I won't balk at a tt but not to rebuild a pouch. That is basically doing the surgery over again. When my surgeon removed my stomach, there wasn't much to work with. So what is different now that they can make a new one or make it larger? Well, yesterday I called to tell them about not being able to eat, instead of speaking to the GI doc and getting another appt for an endoscopy, (per usual) they made an appt with my surgeon. Oh boy, I think I am beginning to panic! Then the head nurse called me back and asked me alot of questions and said she would talk to the surgeon. She then called back and said he definately wants to see me. Oh Man!!! I am already beginning to go through the fear of not living through the surgery. Life is getting good. I am enjoying things so much now. I came so close last time that I am really getting worried. Maybe downright frightened is the word. How cruel that would be, to give me a taste of what life can be and then take it away? I am a woman of great faith and do not believe that our Heavenly Father is cruel but I am still frightened. Before surgery, I just knew I wouldn't live through it. I had no other options at that point, however. What if my feelings were not so much for then but for this time. After all, I am still recovering from the first surgery. Please, again, pray for me and my family. My poor DH is so worried about me. He has alot of faith but has not had a good feeling about any of this from the get go and if there had been another way to go he would have insisted on it. Also, we have great faith in the doctor that did my first surgery. However, he has gotten out of the military and moved. So I have another surgeon. I am sure he is a great surgeon. I have heard nothing but good things from him but I don't know him. I know Dr. Goldberg. I know this is being silly. I really need to get ahold of myself. I feel as if I am losing control of my fears and emotions. I just want to run and hide, but that won't allow me to eat! To top it off, when I get a stricture I don't lose. Can't eat and don't lose! Where is the justice in that? Sorry this is so long. Take care all. Grins, Kaye Please pray for me. And if you are temple goers or live near one, please put my name in.

1) I live in Clinton, CT. 2) I was baptised 8/23/1992 3) Post op surgery 5/15/03 down over 100 lbs strugling 4) Single ( waiting for my eternal compain to find me at age 37 that is pretty sad ) 5) Yes I would love this to be more active I need all the help I can get. I am very interested in those other sites can I have more info? 6 ) Someday I would like my children to be home schooled. BETH CANNING

Thanks Pam and it is wonderful that our dreams are coming true isn't it!! Have a wonderful day!! Alfie

Well that's a GREAT accomplishment! I'm glad to see that your WLS dreams are coming true. Pam

Hi I last read Foul Play by Betsy Brannon Green Gordon