The Skinny on my Surgery 2 days ago!
Hi Linda,
Today is day 6. I feel pretty good. I just have a metallic taste in my mouth which I have been told is from the anastestic used and should last a few more days. My stomach is a bit sore where the staples are, but otherwise I feel really good considering.
I don't have any regrets. To be honest, Linda, I HOPE I am one of the ones that get dumping syndrome. One of my biggest weaknesses was candy bars and baked goods. I couldn't tell you how nice it would be just knowing I flat out couldn't eat that stuff. Maybe my desire for those items would soon diminish if I did get sick once after eating it. I am crossing my fingers that this is true. I needed to make a drastic change in my life. For all my diest and telling myself I wouldn't eat this or that, I would also sabotage it and eat everything I could possibly shove in my mouth. This surgery will prohibit me from doing that in several ways. 1) If I ever were to try to binge on food, I can only physically eat less than a cup (when it is at it's fullest). 2) If I ever were to try to sabotage myself by eating sweets, candy, cakes, ice cream, my body would hugely reject it.
I am sure that I will be able to eat baked goods once again, cooked a different way - using a Sugar Substitute or honey. Ways I never tried to cook them before because I didn't HAVE to. Now, it will be fun experimenting with HEALTHY alternatives in cooking my favorite baked goods once in a blue moon. And I have to say, that excites me. I have 2 babies that I want to raise in a food-conscience household, very aware of what is healthy and what is not. I was not raised in that way, and that led me to my demise in some ways. I could eat anything and everything. When it is time to cook birthday cakes, I want to do something different - maybe an angel food cake with strawberries or something.
Right now, I sit and think - I Might NEVER Have Chocolate Again. And yes, that thought scares me a little, because of my addiction to it, but being thin, healthy, alive, and satisfied with who I am, inside and out, push that little wiggle of fear away.
It is your decision whether or not to go forward with your surgery. If you want my advice, I would say do it - lap band or gastric bypass..but either way, you have to get around the mental food block that is going to occur with either surgery. You can't sabotage yourself...after everything you will go through (the surgery, the recovery, the new diet, etc) you have to stay on course to maintain the new you. If you want the new you. If you don't want the new you, then cancel the surgery. But something must have prompted you to get this far and actually get your surgery not only approved, but scheduled. I know it is scary to imagine never having your favorite sweets again, but in the long scheme of things, at the end of life, will you remember all the candy and cakes you eaten, or will you remember being the best you, physically, and remembering how happy you were with yourself, how proud you were of what you overcame, how healthy and attractive you were?
I wish you all the best of luck, Linda. It is a tough decision to make and only one you can make for yourself, since you will be the keeper of your destiny. I just hope that you truly think what is best for you in the long haul of life and make steps to ensure that decision is safeguarded and respected.
Sara
Today is day 6. I feel pretty good. I just have a metallic taste in my mouth which I have been told is from the anastestic used and should last a few more days. My stomach is a bit sore where the staples are, but otherwise I feel really good considering.
I don't have any regrets. To be honest, Linda, I HOPE I am one of the ones that get dumping syndrome. One of my biggest weaknesses was candy bars and baked goods. I couldn't tell you how nice it would be just knowing I flat out couldn't eat that stuff. Maybe my desire for those items would soon diminish if I did get sick once after eating it. I am crossing my fingers that this is true. I needed to make a drastic change in my life. For all my diest and telling myself I wouldn't eat this or that, I would also sabotage it and eat everything I could possibly shove in my mouth. This surgery will prohibit me from doing that in several ways. 1) If I ever were to try to binge on food, I can only physically eat less than a cup (when it is at it's fullest). 2) If I ever were to try to sabotage myself by eating sweets, candy, cakes, ice cream, my body would hugely reject it.
I am sure that I will be able to eat baked goods once again, cooked a different way - using a Sugar Substitute or honey. Ways I never tried to cook them before because I didn't HAVE to. Now, it will be fun experimenting with HEALTHY alternatives in cooking my favorite baked goods once in a blue moon. And I have to say, that excites me. I have 2 babies that I want to raise in a food-conscience household, very aware of what is healthy and what is not. I was not raised in that way, and that led me to my demise in some ways. I could eat anything and everything. When it is time to cook birthday cakes, I want to do something different - maybe an angel food cake with strawberries or something.
Right now, I sit and think - I Might NEVER Have Chocolate Again. And yes, that thought scares me a little, because of my addiction to it, but being thin, healthy, alive, and satisfied with who I am, inside and out, push that little wiggle of fear away.
It is your decision whether or not to go forward with your surgery. If you want my advice, I would say do it - lap band or gastric bypass..but either way, you have to get around the mental food block that is going to occur with either surgery. You can't sabotage yourself...after everything you will go through (the surgery, the recovery, the new diet, etc) you have to stay on course to maintain the new you. If you want the new you. If you don't want the new you, then cancel the surgery. But something must have prompted you to get this far and actually get your surgery not only approved, but scheduled. I know it is scary to imagine never having your favorite sweets again, but in the long scheme of things, at the end of life, will you remember all the candy and cakes you eaten, or will you remember being the best you, physically, and remembering how happy you were with yourself, how proud you were of what you overcame, how healthy and attractive you were?
I wish you all the best of luck, Linda. It is a tough decision to make and only one you can make for yourself, since you will be the keeper of your destiny. I just hope that you truly think what is best for you in the long haul of life and make steps to ensure that decision is safeguarded and respected.
Sara
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