eating

ok, I am trying to learn to watch how I eat but it is so hard. Last night I bought some cookies but before I ate the whole package, I stopped and threw away the rest of the cookies. I know that is throwing money away, but I really had to do it. That is the first time I caught myself in the middle of eating bad. I know there are emotions that I can't deal with and sometimes I don't even know what they are. So, I am gonna try to reach out for the raisins or some other healthy food instead of junk. I can say that pretty well, but putting it in practice is hard. I'm gonna give it my best shot. I am trying to not beat myself about eating them cookies. I could have done better but I didn't and today is a new day. I go back to surgeons on June 5th to check in and weigh in. I need to work harder toward losing some weight. One of my friends is out of town and I been going to feed her cat for her. She lives about a block away, so I walk there and walk back the last few days. My asthma is so bad that I'm weezing so bad when I get there. Today Im gonna take my inhaler before I go to seeif that helps. And yesterday I went bowling with a friend and today I am so so sore. I guess that was exercise huh. Well, thanx for listening.. take care, debby

GLAD your noticing your problem area and trying to work on them debby. I feel the more bad habits and changes you make pre op the easier it is post op. (at least i am pretty certain your pre op) (((HUG)))) lisa

Thanks Lisa, Yeah I am pre-op. Been getting some of the pre-op testing done, it takes forever to get in for a sleep study here, so I'm waiting for that. Anyways, the eating is a hard thing to change. I been in this way of doing things for so long. I'm gonna work hard at it though. When I get in a tough spot emotionally, I am gonna try to reach out for something healthy. debby

Every change in habits that you can make now will be one less thing to be thinking about post op. Believe me you will have enough to be thinking about that changing bad habits won't get much attention so... Keep us posted... I am glad that you threw them away... That took alot of strength !

Debby, Hun you should be so very proud of yourself over the fact that you stopped that and threw the rest away!!! That is ONE BIG step in the right direction!!! Awesome!! It is very hard to deal with this food I have to say, I know that with the loss of 120 lbs that it should be easier but it is not! I have to work on this EVERYDAY! I guess it will be that way for the rest of my life but ya know that is my cross to bare and so be it! I am doing this for a better and healthier life! We are so worth this ya know.. ~Hugs~ Congrats on taking a big step hun and feel proud of that! Debra P

Hi Debby, Good for you for throwing the cookies out. Just realizing that was what you needed to do is part of the battle. Yes just FIDO forget about it and drive on...it's a new day =) And I am still learning to throw food away or put it up if I'm not done, and @ 4 months post op. It's hard, but nothing tastes as good as thin feels. Kristine

YES it is hard..... I know for me during all the clearances and running around my surgeon required a 10 percent weight loss so i was forced to starte changeing my habits early on this journey and i was thankful i did ! truthfully was the best thing to have done loose some weight pre op! ALL the best lisa

Debby: My NEW motto is it is only a WASTE if it goes on my WAIST! After WLS many of us struggle w/ throwing out food, but it is imperative we learn it is OK, otherwkise the farther out we go we may be tempted to nibble more and more and then defeat the surgery and stop losing/regain....You are wise to work on this now....Making small changes will help you reach your ultimate goal, now I do think raisins are better than cookies but still loaded w/ sugar, so watch the amount you can eat a lot of calories w/o realizing it in things like raisins/nuts! Portion control is the key there! Also the next step may be not reaching for any food but finding alternatives to food to self soothe! YOU CAN DO IT! I beleive in you! Now as for emotions, there is NO emotion we can not handle, reframe that. Emotions are just feelings, not good or bad, they just are. It is the actions we take on those emotions that are +/- !!! Learning to feel them, letting them pass is the key, realizing we do not need to sooth ourselves w/ food. Sadness, anger, happiness will come and go, they are just a fact of life, learning to feel them and work through them is key! I truly think we can all learn this, myself included. Not saying it is easy, it isn't but how we talk to oursleves has alot to do w/ how we feel ok! State" I CAN HANDLE ANY EMOTION" even if in the beginning you dont beleive that, we can convince ourselves eventually by talking to self! PRGOGRESS NOT PERFECTION! Look to consistency as the key to success! What you do 90% of the time matters! Take Care, Jamie Lap RNY 10/9/02 Dr. Singh 320/163 5'9'' (lost 45# before surgery) Plastics 6/9/04 & 11/11/2005 Dr. King http://www.obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/members/profile.php?N=c1132518510 "Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect, it just means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections!"