Wish me luck!!

I will go for my toast test tomorrow morning. I hope the toast comes flying out of me and hits the radiologist in the eyeball...then makes a left and pokes all of them in the emergency room. Stupid! I just hate having my intelligence insulted by arrogant doctors and employees of the hospital. My surgeon repeatly tells me not to listen to them b/c they dont know what they are talking about, but its hard when I am repeatedly exposed to these morons. I will tell him tomorrow the annoying the things his nurse was saying to me the other day and watch his nostrils flare. Tell me if this was a fair thing to say to me, or if I'm being overly sensitive, ok? I will quote her word from word. I refused to be weighted last time( I mean I was in the middle of the ER hallway and they pull out this big hunkofmetal scale out of now where to weight me...like my worst nightmare come true) and the surgeon wanted to weight me right then and there. I told him I didnt want to b/c its depressing and I am not in the mood to get more upset right then. I promised to get weight in the office next week, he said that is fair enough and didnt seem mad or annoyed. When he left, his nurse sidekick says to me, "If you say you love Dr. Gellman like you say you do then you would let him weigh you. He is going to get in trouble if he doesnt get a weight on you now and you don't want him to get into trouble over you, now do you?" I told her "I think some things are more important than records/charts...for example like my sanity! I certianly don't think he would want to weight me against my will and sent me over to the corner crying." She just made this face at me like I'm being "difficult on purpose" or something. I just dont think its very nice to use how I feel about him into making me feel guilt into forcing myself to be weighted. Please She also goes on about making better"choices" like I am secretly eating white castle all day long and complaining to the surgeon that I get stomach aches, I mean please!! Her definition of not eating well and my definition are two seperate things. It's just beyond annoying to be accused of doing things to myself when I am not and never have. I am going to tattle on her tomorrow! Anyway, I should have listened to my surgeon who advised me not see other surgeons besides the one he told me to talk to b/c he knows no one has seen this before besides this guy. He said they will want me to repeat this test for them so they can gain the experience and treat me not so nicely. Well he was right as usual. I went to three different surgeons and none of them have seen it and all wanted me to do a toast test with them so they could see for themselves. No I dont think so, I'm not a lab rat. I will do this toast test for my surgeon tomorrow and see what the deal is. Then I will go into the city to this other surgeon( I guess next week or whatever) I was initally sent to and get his opinion and hear what he thinks the options are surgically to make this problem go away as much as it can. I am not discrediting my surgeons opinion or dont have trust in him. I am certainly not wanting to have a new surgeon take over and looking for someone else to operate on me, no way in heck. Sometimes just having a new set of eyes and ears might really help and that is all that matters, especially considering he has seen this a couple of times before. I think my plan is beyond fair no? I swear if my surgeon can do something to make me this at least 40% better, I will make up my own stupid religion, like L. Ron Hubbard, worshipping the gellgod. Too funny. Stupid, stupid and another stupid!

Hi Sweetie, If the toast test is going to make you better, then so be it. Gellman will figure this whole thing out! No need to be a lab rat for some other random surgeons! Do what you feel is right in your heart! You will be fine and all this will get resolved! Best of luck, and keep me updated! Ilyssa P.S. I am actually at work today!!!!!!!! GRRRRR!!! I miss my couch!

Hey you, Thanks so much! This is all beyond frustrating for everyone so I know the best thing I can do is just cooperate and do it w/a smile on my face. In the long run all of this as been done to help me and that is what matters. Enough is enough though, seriously. There is just so much one person can take! Anyway, I am sad now b/c my fav show, House M.D, had the last show of the season last night. I love that show, it is hilarious. I want a disgruntled, insane mad at the world doctor like him. Wow you are at work already? TAKE IT EASY THOUGH!!! Let me know what time you will be around, email me later. Feel good! Tavia

I'm such a dufus sometimes. My appt. with the endo is Friday not tomorrow. Tell Larry I said hello and I hope everything goes great. Joanne

Will do! Thanks so much.

Hey Sunshine... what time is your appointment? I have an appt. at 11AM with my endo, I can come hold your hand if your appt. is earlier than that and Gellgod would be surprised to see me too!!! Anyway, I hope goes great and they finally figure what's going on and how to fix it. Joanne

Tavia, Wishing you all the best.... ~hugs~ I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.... Debra P

Thanks!! I love how your always put the skinny dancing man next to your name, too funny!

Tavia, Good Luck with the dreaded toast test tomarrow ! I hope your surgeon figure's this all out for you and then you can actually live your life without all the hub bub from these ignorant people (hospital staff ect. ) that have no idea what you are going through and could not care less either ! I can't wait to see the day that you post to share a dream of your's that has came true or to share a big smile saying "I am finally free to enjoy my life !" That day will come , sweetie . I know it will ! Your surgeon will fix the problem and he won't give up until he does ! I love the nick name you gave him too "GELLGOD" It is so fitting for him and all that he is done to make thing's right for you ! I also love your new pic ! Oh, and I also wanted to tell you that "House" is my hero of a doc too ! I hate to have to wait until the fall to see the new show's ! I will be watching all the re-run's of them though ! How about you ? He may be brutally sarcastic at time's but he sure know's his **** , doesn't he ? Ya, gotta love the guy ! Well again sweetie , good luck tomarrow and let us all know how you make out ! and Carolee

Hi Tavia, I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. I agree with Gellman that you should ignore the stupid comments and insentivity of other medical professionals. Medical professionals in general have the sensitivity of a doorknob (I ought to know, I am one). Next time you encounter a comment that is insensitive, look at them as if they've just said the most moronic thing you ever heard and act as if you pity them. You don't even need to respond verbally. People can be such ******** Good luck tomorrow. xoxo Amy