Son's 6th birthday party

Good evening all! We went to Chuck E Cheese tonight, just us and my dad. We had one of our frequent family arguments on the way there. I had changed my mind from eating a salad to going ahead and eating some pizza, I was feeling so stressed. I was thinking of boneless spare ribs and a buffet and salivating...thank GOD I'm banded, I couldn't go to a buffet. By the time we got to Chuck E Cheese, I couldn't do it. I ate the salad, and no pizza, phew! I didn't have any birthday cake though and I plan on it only if I feel physically hungry. Just a little piece, that's probably all I can eat anyway. We did stop at the gas station for a cappucino, a small one and I split it with the hubby. Now if only I can stop wanting cigarettes. My pack is done and I'm trying not to buy anymore. Ah thanks for listening to my ramble Hope everyone has a great weekend. I want to swim! Kristine

Hi Kristine, First of all, YOU GO GIRL! You totally conquered your food demons tonight in the face of enormous emotional challenge. Wow. I hope you feel good about that because it is a significant accomplishment. I wonder if now is a good time for you to be addressing quitting smoking. Are you using the patch? Have you already cut down to very few ciggarettes a day? Have you tried Wellbutrin? Is there a smoking cessation support group or program nearby (maybe at your local hospital)? Just like WLS, smoking cessation requires a concerted effort, with as many physical assists (like meds and the patch) as possible, and major group and personal support. Are you ready for this undertaking so soon after WLS and while you're still trying to lose weight? I'm all for you quitting smoking, but it is such a big deal and needs to be timed right to give you the best chance of success. I would hate to see you sabotage all your amazing effort and success. Congrats to you. You have moved mountains. xoxo Amy

Hi Amy, I'm on Wellbutrin but since I got on it that's when I seemed to want to smoke strangely enough. The odd thing is I usually wouldn't smoke more than 2 cigarettes a day. I was always able to quit before. I am having urges but not smoking. I know what it is, it's the kids being out of school, and the fact I have them alone a lot since my husband works nights. I love them and I feel like a horrible mother for feeling that way, but I've always been strange where they make me nervous. I watch the little one like a hawk and constantly being told by the older one especially that I'm overprotective and strict. I admit I am. It causes a lot of fights in the house, and it's one of those things to drive me to want to smoke. Two days have gone by of wanting to buy a pack, and I haven't so we'll see. I found out yesterday that my son got into dance camp as well as dance school. Kristine

Good job on the salad....I recently had my sons b day at chuckie cheese but i wasnt as strong as you , i had the pizza. Its one of my favorite foods and i just cant say no to it. lol Keep up the good work. LisaMarie