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Hey, it has been long time since I posted here. My last trip to the surgeon was kind of disappointing to me. He told me that they want to see me for a full year and monitor my progress in losing weight before they talk about doing the surgery. So that would make it Febuary or march before I can have the surgery. I know there is no hurry but I have been going there for about 8 months now and it is hard to wait. I had 2 really bad days a couple weeks ago. I binged on chocolate. I am back on track mostly, I really need to work harder. I know I need to find other ways to handle my stressful days. It is very hard. I then started feeling like I'm a failure at this. I know that if I could do it perfectly , I wouldn't need the surgery, and they don't expect me to be perfect. I guess I'm my own worse critic. I haven't been exercising. I tell myself that I am gonna do it, but it is hard to make myself do it. Then I feel like more of a failure. I want to be a loser so bad. I gotta really work at this. I have been seeing my counselor and talking about this. I have alot of abuse issues and it is hard to get past them and do what I know to do. It is alot of hard work to deal with those kind of issues AND the losing weight issues. I am sorry for sounding so negative, just feeling overwhelmed I guess. Thanks for listening. debby

Debby, Hang in there and keep on keep'in on! Just think you have done 8 months so far ...bravo Before you know it February / March will be here and you will be posting that you have a date. keep your chin up ... you have come a long way - stay focused on your goal. (((hugs))) Britt

Hugs to you Debby.... I know how frustrating this journey can be..... The only thing we can do is hang in there and be patient (even though we wanted this to be done yesterday) ... Peace & Blessings Lori

Hi Debby Hang in there! There is a light at the end of the tunnel. You can do anything you set your mind to. The surgery is worth any sacrifice you have to make to get it. Good luck! Marcia

Debby, Have you ever come to the support group meetings? they are the 3rd Wednesday of the month at the Turner room at Samaritan Keep Home in Watertown at 7pm.. I am on track to have my surgery done hopefully in November and the support group has been great for me over the last couple of months. Jenny