So Excited, So Sad & So Hopeful....

Hi All,  Tomorrow is the begining I start my Medifast, I am sooooo excited... and as crazy as it may sound I am sad it is like food has been my best friend, my lover and my worst enemy all in one and now were ending our dysfunctional relationship. I am leaving food for health and it is unbelieveably exciting.  I know many of you have already been where I am and I appreciate any advice you have to offer me.  I know that it is necessery first step toward my surg date 12/13/07 but I am unsure of what to expect.  I also have a fear of recovery after surg. I want to and I am hoping that I can bounce back quickly, in a healthy way of course.  I do not want to tell my employer about the surgery and I am in a tiny business and disability is not offered so I hope that I can have my surg and return to work in a week. I know I sound nuts, I dont do any physicial labor I sit on my butt (another reason I'm fat) all day.  I think that I am expecting too much because I know that this is a life changing operation and to expect that a week to recover enought to retune to my job is really pushing it, but this has been an extremely personal journey and I dont want to share with my coworkers and I dont feel that I have to.  Okay I think now I am just ranting on and on. Anyway I have a way to go before the surg date comes I figure it will be what it is ment to be. Karma will work it all out and eveything happnes for a reason.  As Always thanks for listening.

i feel very similar to you - while i an waiting on a srg.date i need to get back to wrk within a week or so. I dont want to tell my boss etc, as i too think this is PERSONAL.  whatever you decide - do so in health. best for yr op.

I desperately wanted to keep my procedure a private matter but still had problems with my co-worker's inquisitive nature.  I had to resort to lying (which did not make me feel good).  Eventually, as the weight starts to fall off of you quickly, you will find people whispering about you and some even have the nerve to DEMAND how much weight you've lost, others will come right out and ask you if you've had "that weight surgery"....It is stressful trying to be private.  In the beginning I tried to hide my weight loss by wearing all my old clothes.  To this day I still have "issues" but I keep hoping I'll find a new job so that I can make a new start with people who did not know me as the morbidly obese *****now I'm just a skinnier one....lol