update

Hey everyone.. Sorry I haven't written in a while. I have been struggling with depression some and trying to stay on track as far as my eating and exercise. It is hard. I am going back to the surgery center on the 24th and I'm hoping that I've lost some more weight. Lately I have felt like such a failure because I try so hard to stay on track but then I'm off track again. I gotta remind myself that it is a huge thing to change my lifestyle of eating and will take me a while to get it. I didn't realize that I do as much emotional eating as I do. I have changed a few things in my eating though. I probably shouldn't be so hard on myself. I have a real hard time exercising when I'm struggling emotionally then I kick myself cause I'm not doing what I know to do. I just need to get up the willpower to override the struggle. That is hard to do. Anyways, that is where I'm at. Take care. debby

Debby, Hun even after the surgery it is so very hard! I am 10 months out now and it is a struggle every day though I can not eat as much as I used to in one sitting that still does not mean I can not get in all those calories in a day! Kind of my struggle right now as well ~Hugs~ Know we are always here for you and you are NEVER alone. Thanks for the update hun Hang in there, we all learn new habbits but in our own time. It will come for us all if we really want this bad enough. Debra P

Hi Debby, Yes, I totally agree with Debra. It's a daily struggle that you have to constantly be conscious of. Take it day by day and if you relapse a bit, well darn it, we all do it! So, forgive yourself and move on. Each meal is an adventure in creativity; Exercise can be vacuuming, washing floors, walking the dog, as long as there is movement. I still am not motivated to exercise as much as I should but I know that I have to as much as possible. Keep seeing yourself with all of the test done and a date scheduled for surgery - think positive or at least try to as often as you can- you will succeed. Please keep us posted on your journey. We are here to support you. Take care, LindaM

Hi Debby, No one knows the depression monster better than I do. We go grocery shopping and comment on the Chinese buffet near the grocery store and hubby jokes and says, "What? No buffet?" I am surprised they didn't know our first names. I used to use that buffet to feed my emotions after someone had hurt me deeply. Nope, no more buffet. That's history. Each day you fall, try to pick yourself up and start over. Like falling off a bike. It's a struggle, I know. But it sounds like you are taking steps to make it better and that's great! I just restarted a new med, and it's working...slowly. Kristine

JUST wanted to offer you (((((HUG)))))))!!! Debby I think many of us struggle with staying away from the wrong choices and try our best. YOUR not alone! HANG in their thing is your admitting some slips! JUSt keep trying your best. I know i battle with similar issues dailey. GOOD LUCK! lisa

Hi Debby, First of all--It is good to hear from you--we miss you when you don't post! And yes, we all struggle--that is why I see a therapist twice a week--to try to keep on track--and I have had the surgery--so you are doing fine--pre-op! Don't beat yourself up--if you get off track --try to do something positive to make it better--but don't regret too long--you seem like a lovely person--and we care about you! By the way, when you feel depressed--DON'T stay away--we are here to give you love and support --so do not be a stranger. Lots of hugs for you Be Blessed, Marian S.C. 242.4/169.4/goal125-130??