Update - (long)

i just wanted to say that i am so sorry for your loss may god bless you and be with you and your family at this very difficult time and i am sending you big hugs and kisses xxoo hope you feel better soon i will keep you in my prayers

I am so sorry for your loss. The one thing that stood out for me is that the last things you did for your mom is to be there for her and help her to be comfortable. It certainly did not sound like you did anything to disappoint her, i'm sure she was and is proud that you had the strength and commitment to take this journey for your own health and well-being. She is at peace. I wish you all the best and hope the coming weeks bring you peace. 

So sorry !  I almost lost my mom last year from liver failliar.  Could not imagine you're pain right now.  My prayers are with you and you're family.  You take care of yourself. 

Jennifer, the last thing you did was show your mother how much you loved her and she knew as the last thing she said to you was that she loved you to. Sometimes things happen for a reason.

My grandma was like my mom, she raised me and allowed me to come back over and over again, even with kids. I felt so guilty when she passed away. I got hired to a job on Friday and was so happy to tell her. On Saturday she passed and I actually went to my first day of work that Monday. There is a church next to the school and the sign said, "Forgive yourself in an instant - Jesus does." I know it's easier said than done. Jennifer, you need to take care of yourself right now. Praying for peace and healing for you.

 I'm so sorry, Jennifer for your loss.

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your mom.  My condolences to you and your family.  Be good to yourself over the next weeks and seek support to help you with your bereavement and especially your guilt if you feel you need it.The guilt can be very difficult to deal with on your own.  There are lots of good books for you to look at in time. 

Thank you everyone for your kind words....

Yesterday was a very hard day for me, but after all your kind words and a long chat with my Dad, I feel a bit better.

I think it will be a day by day thing for a while but I imagine that in time, it will get easier.

Again, thank you all.