Wrote this while depressed

In the darkness of my mind I close my eyes try to rewind What happened where did I go wrong I've been dead for oh so long The blood still rushes through my veins Acknowledge me I'm not insane You look my way but do not see Why must you look through me A beauty queen no not me An ugly beast is what you see Laugh at me if you will I'll just pop another pill (by me)

Your poem is very good alot of us feel that way but at the same time you have to keep your happy face on and pray that you can find your happy place one day. I to write poetry and my best seems to be when I am deppressed or extremely happy there is no middle for me.......and that is how my eating habits go I can eat when I want to but then just as easy I can, have, and will go days or sometimes up to a week with out eating to loose 10lbs by the weekend i don't know how to be in the middle.......God I hope that this surgery is the answer to it you know......Great poem

This sounds like you wrote about me. I go through this everyday. I sit at school and get laughed at everyday. I can't stand without being in tremendous pain. I cry myself to sleep every night. I have a loving relationship with my b/f, but sometimes it feels like that ain't enough. I can't explain it, but it's like I just want to give up on everything, but then I remember what I have to live for. The pill I want to swallow everyday is now the smile and laughter that my daughter brings to me. She is the most beautiful child, and it is hard to believe she came from me. This poem is very touching, I know what it is like. Job well done.