Daily Rant - Thursday Edition

I totally sympathize with you on number 2.  I am hovering right at 201.  I am almost scared to weigh myself (this morning it was 206, which is impossible when it was 201 on Monday...right?) because I don't want to see bigger numbers).  I think I will never get under 200.  I think it is just a pride thing.  I mean 199 isn't that different from 201, but it is in my mind.  *sigh*  Anyhow, sympathizing thoughts coming your way. Cynthia Edited to say - I forgot the other part of my rant.  I only have three months to my 1 year surgiversary.  I feel like I haven't lost enough or shrunk enough.  I see all these people with so much more success than I have had, and I feel like fodder for the naysayers.  I don't think I have failed, but I do wonder what is wrong with me sometimes.  It isn't like I am non-compliant...  Anyhow, that is my rant.

Just wanted to comment on hitting your 1 year surgiversary....  Success isnt measured by how many pounds you lose... success with this surgery is measured by getting healthy, reaching the goals YOU set (health wise, weight wise etc), and making all the necessary chanes to *maintain* your weight loss. Its not a race to the fini****s a matter of finishing. I had *only* around 100lbs to lose when I had surgery - it took me 1.4 years to reach my surgeons goal, 1.5 years to reach 100lbs lost and not my NUT set a new goal which I am hoping to hit next month at 1.8 years out. You definately havent failed, nothing is wrong with you... just keep doing what you need to and you will reach the goals you have set for yourself!

You are, as usual, totally on.  I just get so frustrated sometimes because I am an impatient now person.  I need to look at all the things I can do now that I couldn't do 9 months ago.  That is where my head needs to be.  Thank you so much for being supportive.  I know it gets annoying when I whine so much about weight.  Thanks for being a friend :)  I am going to try to do better with focusing on the positive.

I think we all are inpatient when it comes to weight loss... for so long the focus is get to goal get to goal get to goal... but then you get there and you get hit with the 'well now what?' I find its been hard to get out of the 'OMG I have SOOOOO much weight to lose' mind frame because I was in it for soooo long! Thinking back from where you came from is always a good way to help 'cheer' you up. I pull out my old photos and compare myself month to month, look at the inches and I still cant believe that was me then, this was me now... reminds me no matter how far I have to go, look at how far Ive come already! The closer you get to goal the bigger the difference each pound will make - you will be amazed. Im sure youve heard 'skinny' people say OMG I gained 5lbs Im so fat... and you just rolllllll your eyes (I know I did!)... well when you get small 5lbs can mean a size change! I just had my GB out and gained 9lbs of fluids in the hospital.. I thought I was going to DIE because my pants were so tight... I dropped 5lbs the first few days after but those extra 4lbs were killing me... I had to go get out a larger size pants until they finally fell off today! :-)

i could write a book in here today but i'll spare you all. my boyfriend is fabuuuulous so i'm not complaining but relationships are stressful. he's thinking about moving to chicago.... which means of course.... i have to decide if i'm going too, if i'm staying & if we're going to make it work long distance or end it or what. rawr. hate that it's so hard to make big decisions. trying to just let it come but it feels overwhelming. on the same note of him - he has a wonderful, wonderful little boy who i adore............but the boy's mom is c-r-a-z-y & she makes me wanna lose it! these are probably my biggest frustrations. money is & has been a big one lately too........... to top it all off i've been so tired & feeling so blah it magnifies everything. rough week overall i guess. super stressed. feeling funky. yuck yuck yuck. hopefully next week will be better. some positive thoughts/prayers/vibes would be GREATLY appreciated!  thanks for letting me share....it helps to just get it out even if it doesn't solve anything....

My rant is that my life is back to 'normal' after the holidays. Unfortunately 'normal' for me means having a billion things to do a day and not getting enough rest. In addition to my 40 hr a week job my evenings have been like this: Mon= ds to cub scouts, Tues=haircuts for both kids, Wed=basketball practice for ds and school project for dd, Thur=Bball pics for ds, Fri=Bball practice for ds, Sat=2 bball games for ds & sleepover for dd.... and this is a 'typical' week. Can you tell I'm a single mom with NO help from my ex?

My other rant is that an employee of mine that I can normally depend on doing an excellent job has screwed up three times (in a big noticable way) within the last month. I don't know where her head is but it obviously isn't at work!

Wait . . . isn't it THURSDAY???  Whatever. Not really a rant, just a bizarre observation.  My bladder appears to have gotten larger post-surgery.  No kidding.  My pre-surg routine was like clockwork.  Get up in the morning, take a wizz, take a shower . . . ok, truth be told, I wizz in the shower , but that's besides the point.  Well, if you think about it logically, I'm saving the environment by using less toile****er.  Yaaaay me!  Anyway, after my morning minor transaction, I'd make another one at about lunchtime, then another about the time I leave work, then another right before bed and that's it.  Well now I still do my mornings, but my lunchtime/late afternoon things seem to have 'merged'.   Yesterday, I was just about to go home and I went to the bathroom to do my business.  With the traffic in this town, you never know how long you'll be on the road, so I make it a rule that if there's the slightest urge to go, then I have to go.  I walk into the bathroom in front of a co-worker of mine.  I walk to the potty (stall, I can't do urinals.  I go 'over the fence', not 'through the gate', and exposing ones ass in the mens room is a no no.)  My co-worker heads to the sink and starts brushing his teeth.  He does a COMPLETE and THOROUGH brushing.  Not a quick job.  He did upper, lower, molars, probably did the tongue as well.  When he was done and walking out the door, I realize that I'm STILL peeing.  With no signs of stopping anytime soon.  I was a bit alarmed.  I mean, how much pee can the human body hold?  I've been told on numerous occasions (usually by women), that I'm full of crap, but this was different.  I must have been there for an additional 30 seconds getting out the last of it.  When I was done, I actually felt LIGHTER.  No kidding. I would ask if any of you have had similar post-op experiences, but you sit down to pee.  That's just . . . WRONG.  You can't write your names in the snow, or go against a tree or any cool stuff like that.  How do you live?!?

Good catch on the rant thing...totally missed that one :o) Now, having said that...you are truly a funny guy.  I giggled and giggled reading your post.  I mean, I am not usually one for the bodily functions make me snicker like a schoolgirl, but I was definitely laughing.  I actually have noticed that my bladder seems smaller, but that is because I am drinking about 4 times the water I was pre-op.  Maybe your bladder seems bigger acause you are drinking more?  As far as peeing in the snow, I think I am okay.  It is much more fun to wear skirts and high heels and tease boys than pee my name.  I can write it with my phone number just fine in ink ;o)

My rant was going to be that you dont rant enough but since youre here and ranting Ill save that for a different day! Pre op I urinated about 12+ times a day.. If I was feeling particularly bloated that could double. Now Im at about 4 - 6 a day. My bladder isnt bigger but my fat isnt pressing on it from every angle so it has more room to expand in :) I may not write my name in the snow but I can pee in the shower too darnit!!! Today Im so lazy I could cath myself and enjoy laying here until its tomorow.. but now I have to pee from all the pee talk.. Thanks! HUGS PK

  I was just seeing who was paying attention.   I drink so much that I pee ALL THE TIME.  I can dot the "i" in my name in the snow.  Does that count?