I'm back
can you handle giving yourself shots? Your levels may need a quick boost anyway. If I were you I"d call a pharmacy and check. I thought I'd read that you may not even need a prescription
Hi PlumpKitty,
First let me say that you've already made significant progress in that you've sought help and support and are able to identify your problem areas. That takes courage, not to mention a lot of insight, so kudos to you for that!!
I'm a newbie and pre-op, so there's not much advice I can give regarding post-op eating habits, activity, etc; HOWEVER, I am an expert in this thing called depression. I have suffered with it for almost 10 years, bipolar disorder for 6 years, anxiety, ADHD, you name it. I know first-hand the effects that it has on the mind and body and the role it has played in my own weight gain (and struggle to lose). Depression is like a brick wall; you can possess all the knowledge, motivation, desperation, whatever inside but every time you're ready to move in the direction of change BAM!!! You hit the wall. You can't exercise or even go for a walk around the block because it has you shackled to the bed, confined to your room, imprisoned in your own home. Getting out of bed, getting showered, getting dressed is a chores, virtually impossible. It takes all of your energy just to LIVE, just to exist; taking vitamins is probably the last thing on your mind (I was that way when it came to taking the meds my shrink would prescribe for me). For me, I couldn't make healthy eating choices because I punished myself with food... when I get depressed or stressed I don't eat at all. PK, I understand PERFECTLY.
My only advice to you - as hard as I know it is to do - is to seek professional help with your illness. It is very hard to manage ANYTHING else going on in your life is that is not under control. Trust me I know... I have been to over 20 different mental health professionals in the past 8 or 9 years. It's exhausting having to tell your story over and over again. And sometimes you just don't feel like being bothered. But you HAVE to push yourself to do it. I thought I'd never find the right one but I'm glad that I hung in there... I've been seeing the same therapist every week for over 2 years now. I'm not in love with her lol, but it's helped me a great deal, especially in dealing with my son who has special needs. I can think clearer now, I have more resolve, I'm more patient, less moody, etc etc etc. And contrary to what she and the shrink were pushing, I was able to do it without medication. You have to find what works for you and then do it. Please go see someone. In the meantime, we're here if you need to vent. Feel free to PM me if you wanna talk more.
XOXO,
MzDeeLuxxe
I have been on and off medications for depression/mania for 19 years. It never gets any easier. Im so happy that you have found some relief in your life from the illness. I honestly don't know if I ever will. At best I work on just accepting it is part of who I am and dealing with the problems it causes as they arise.
I am non functioning without medications so its not even a possibility at this point. The biggest problem is Im often non compliant with my meds due to apathy.
I do work hard on the emotional/mental side of BP disporder but havent done therapy in many years as it never really helped me. Maybe Im just obstinate or maybe its just not what I need individually. Either way its difficult to even fathom therapy when I wont leave the house for much less stressful reasons.
Thank you very much for understanding. I know OH is always filled with an abundance of depressed/BP people. Here is where my therapy has been in the past and it worked so here is where I shall go first ;)
HUGS
PK
**Current Weight 149 pounds**
I *AM* the PK
I am still sure you are gorgeous as ever girl! You have done excellent!!!!!!!!!!!! You had your plastics and are looking awesome! I know the gallbladder right after was a serious kick in the patootie. Wish I was there to give you some real hugs. And you know what, we have all been there and done that and I hope it starts to get better for you!
((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))
AmyBeth
You know OH is the best place to find people who understand that regardless of what different problems we face how we cope with them is often what bonds us together, eating and not eating as pampering and punishment is something we truly know how to do in abundance :(
HUGS back atcha baby :)
PK
**Current Weight 149 pounds**
I *AM* the PK
So glad you are back to your old stomping ground here and making a presence once again. I know this year has been *extremely* rough for you and glad you are reaching out for the support you deserve and need right now. No reason to be ashamed. This maintenance stuff is hard work, nothing easy about it. The losing part was the easy part. Now it is time to deal with LIFE.... that is the hard part. I so wanna shove my face full of food to cope with life and sometimes I will ... knowing I shouldn't and still do. Many times I make a concious effort not to but it is TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH. Not sure it ever gets easier but I continue to battle it. Just know you are never alone... we are all in this together.
Anyways...I don't come to this board often, if I do its maybe once a week in lurk mode. It is more drama than I care to have in my life right now.
See ya on yahoo IM's...
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RNY- 12/04/06 with Dr. Matt Glasock
LBL - 4/28/09 with Dr. Rene Recinos
