Pre-op weight gain: the last meal again & again

Hi All,
I have to say that if I'm feeling anything...it's shame. My surgery date is July 1 and I've been on a feeding frenzy for the past two weeks. I don't start my liquid diet for another week but, I'm feeling stressed since I've gained weight and worried my surgeon will cancel. I know that this is why I'm having the surgery but really, I feel like such a failure! Did this happen to anyone else? I could use some support and encouragement if anyone has some time.
Thanks,
Kim

 My weight bounced up and down a lot pre-op. I would lose some, then gain some again and again. I think it really showed my surgery my struggles with losing weight. My father, who also had the surgery, only gained weight pre-op and our surgeon still did his surgery. 

I think you will be ok. Once you start the liquid diet, you will probably loose what you recently gain, plus more.

Hang in there and good luck!

I ate like cray for a month before surgery. and I planned it. Got it out of my system. I ate everywhere I could think of. I told my husband I was going to do it and asked him to please not comment.He didn't. The literature from the hospital advised us not to binge eat before but it was something I needed to do and have no regrets doing so. Why would the surgeon cancel? Are you close to the too large to have surgery BMI? If not, don't worry about it. Go and eat cake, you won't be able to for a while.

oops..."crazy"

No If I were you I wouldn't do it because if your liver isn't shrunk enough they will close u back up and not do the surgery.

I think that is normal to feel like you want to continue to eat your last meal over and over again.  I had some gain before my date, just not that close.  Once you have the surgery though you will not be able to eat like before so work your tool and you will be successful.  I had my RNY 4/5/11 and I am feelin real good.  I felt like you before and you can feel like me after.  Good luck and remember it is all in the head and they don't operate on the head so it will take mind over matter and maybe some happy pills and therapy (that is what I do) LOL.

I love this, "it is all in the head and they don't operate on the head..."  LOL

Just be prepared for your liquid diet preop; you'll find out what a food addict you are. The detox from carbs is a horrible experience (was for me anyway!). However if you really want this, you'll make it happen! Remember you're the only one that can do it for yourself and your future!

Yep, me too! I had a list of restaurants, and I wanted to eat at each one before the date. I was supposed to lose 10 lbs before surgery. Before each pre-op appointment I would fast for 2-3 days and then after the appt. continue to eat. On the morning of the surgery I weighed at the hospital and it showed I had lost 6 lbs. He did the surgery and no one ever commented. They want you to lose because I understand it shrinks your liver which makes surgery easier. Just squeeze in all of your eating now and then be really good in the days leading up to surgery. I expect you'll be fine. And know that this is totally normal. Don't feel like a failure, remember if we could follow a diet we wouldn't need surgery.

 get it out of your system before your liquid diet.. if you can really focus on the liquid diet you will be fine.. The liquid diet was very easy for me.. I just focused on having a safe surgery and I knew it would be safer if my liver was in good shape and that kept me on track I lost 25 pounds in 14 days.  You WILL be able to eat all the things you love after surgery so you don't need to go crazy now!

I went through a lot of last supper syndrome too. It is normal.

Important things:

Be mindful and compassionate about yourself in this part of the process. Observe your emotional state when you are ramping up to eat, when you are eating, and after you have eaten. Maybe journal the experiences you have. There is a lot of information that comes out about your emotional relationship with food during this phase, and really working to understand it now will help you a LOT on your journey.

Pay attention to how you feel and what your internal dialogue is, ask why you are choosing the foods you are choosing, and the amounts you are choosing and try really hard not to judge yourself, but to learn from your actions instead. Try not to indulge in cycles of shame about it. Talk to yourself like you were a best friend struggling with the biggest transition in her life - which you are. if you had a friend in that position, you wouldn't call her names, berate her and guilt her out. You'd soothe her, hug, her, comfort her and encourage her to do better as she moves forward. Developing this kind of relationship with yourself will help you in the long run.

Lastly, don't throw it all to the wind... encourage yourself to do the best you can every day. Some of this phase can be managed through planning. make a list of the things you want pre-surgery. Put them in a list in order of priority. Understand why the items are on the list (whether it be food, or a place you eat, or a volume of food) and why they are of the priority you are giving them. Then choose one thing every day to do, or one place to go. Give it one meal a day, and aim for healthier eating the rest of the day.

Good luck on your journey!