Scared Enough!

My surgery is 1 week and 2 days away. Yes, I know all the risks. My husband just now after I have jumped through all the hoops wants to go over all the risks again. I'm scared already but I realize this is not only what I want to do but what I have to do to live a longer healthier life. He thinks I just want to be skinny. I realize skinny is a bonus. I have many health problems. I have lost 24 pounds total so far and he thinks since I have done that without surgery than I can continue and will be fine. Sure maybe and just maybe I can lose the weight but I have never been able to keep it off. Sorry for my rant!

Look at it this way: if you were able to do it all yourself and keep the weight off, you wouldn't be getting surgery, right? Those of us looking for a tool like WLS have been unsuccessful in losing weight and keeping the weight off.

Is your husband not supportive of your decision or is he just scared too?

This is major surgery and you need to be fully aware of the risks. I made sure all my ducks were in a row before I had surgery in case anything would happen. Did it? no, but knowing I took care of my wishes with my children and it was so reassuring. My family lives in Boston and I in STL I had visitation arrangements drawn up, my will, living will, that I want to be cremated and 1/2 my ashes stay here and 1/2 my ashes go to Boston. What I would wear etc. Some people thought I was morbid but I see it as being prepared.
Honestly, as it does get closer those risks seem a lot more real.

I can't tell you how many times I have lost weight. MOST of us are experts at it. It's keeping it off that is the problem. With this tool the chances of keeping it off increase. That's why I had the surgery. 

Vanity, was the last thing on my list. My husband loves me, I have great friends. My husband could not care less if I still weighed 316, OTHER than my health and my participation with my family. I am only 2 weeks out and my energy level is through the roof already. 

Please free to rant.  That's what we are here for. 

Thank you so much. I look forward to your future posts!

That's the whole thing, though. At least for me. I always could lose weight.  Sometimes 30 pounds, sometimes 15, sometimes even 50.  But I could never continue to lose, and never, ever keep it off.  It really was like alcoholism for me. I could be good, hold my self-control together for so long, and then, with one or two bad days of eating what I hadn't been permitting, all the reasons that I become overweight in the first place came back stronger than ever: I loved the foods I loved. Eating was easy. It was legal, and not cocaine-expensive. It was satisfying. It was soothing.

The whole relapse thing was exactly like "fallling off the wagon". And I'd pick up all the lost weight and then some, again and again.

I imagine the pre-surgery diet isn't the first one you've lost weight on. Just ask hubby why he thinks that you'd be able to just keep losing this time, when you haven't before?


Please don't let fear dominate this exciting time. You have challenges ahead, and the best way to clear them is by trying to keep your spirits and hopes high.

Best of luck.