I feel like crying because I have been questioning what the HECK I am doing? I have been approved for surgery and that little what the heck am I doing feeling has been niggling at the back of my mind. DO I want to go through with this? I sure do.

I feel like laughing because I got approved and felt a weight lifted because well this process has been a pain in my butt for so long and now I have that tracking number and valid date.

I feel like screaming because today has taken forever for the sun to go down and because I wish tomorrow would hurry up so I can call my surgeon's office and give them the news so I can get my final pre-op appt set up and get my subsequent surgery date at said appointment.

Oh I am such a mess. I know I am sounding like a child but darn it, ALL of you have been here at some point. LOL!!! I guess I am just being paranoid that this is not real. Hmmmm OUCH yes that pinch felt real but...........

Ok done with my whining.

This surgery is a big decision and it's one that most of us have/had conflicting feelings about.  I wish you all the best in your journey!

 I have so been there. BUt once you get a date time flies and next thing you know tomorrow is the BIG day! Let us all know when you get a date.

You are feeling NORMAL things. I felt like it took forever waiting to get all my requirements met and then when I got my surgery date I felt like the world was going 100 miles an hour. Best of luck and congrats.

Its an awesome journey. Enjoy the ride.


Mary ~

I can relate as well!!  I have to say that it took me a year to decide to even pursue the surgery so once I started the ball, I knew 100% it was what I wanted!! I had two (now) minor glitches but I wanted the surgery in July from the get go and I go tit-July 5!! Congrats, good luck and keep us posted!!

Shannon

LO I know about the hurdles. I was supposed to have my surgery back in MAY but the surgeon I was to have transferred to another hospital. THen I got satellited out as did 80 other people. Then I had to have other stuff done that the original surgeon didnt need/want done. Glad my surgeon I have now did though, or they would have never found out about a few things- none of which will affect my surgery or even me getting it. Then it was further testing that I had already done but that were the wrong type- YABBA. I was not happy.

Yes the surgeon I did have sounds like an incompitant (sp*) fool but this was at an MTF and they did what they ahd to do to a minimum I guess. So yea one hurdle after another- getting my medical records, fighting with a murse coordinator (told her I didn't need her anymore), and overall battling with my own emotions at one time or toehr. And before anyone asks or is curious- I AM seeing a therapist to deal with some outside issues and she has also been working with me on the WLS stuff and helping me figure out where certain feelings are coming from.

I can freely admit-
I am scared ****less about surgery (ANY surgery in general)
I am sad that I let myself get to this point
I am happy that I am doing everything I can and happy that I have done everything I can to better myself.
I am ready for this change.
I HAVE made the right decision for me.

Now will I still feel the same way after I had the surgery- maybe, may be not. But when it does happen and I find myself asking "What the hell have I done?" I am going to come back here and remind myself to kick myself in the butt AFTER I heal that is.

 I can so understand those feelings, as I begin my journey again! I'm finally having my first consult tomorrow.....AGAIN.....This is my 2nd time around for all of these appts etc, because our insurance changed before I could get a surgery date scheduled 3 years ago....and since then our insurance that we had wouldn't approve it.....so NOW...to be on this journey again....I TOTALLY can relate!!! I got the call Friday and have been happy/emotional/scared alllll weekend long....I know it's what I want to do...I know it's the right decision for me....blah blah blah....

Hang in there...and I'm sure I'll be having some of your same thoughts as the process continues~! 
Keep us informed of your dates~

Lyn

This is the most emotional surgery that I've ever had.  I've been thru all of those feelings.  After the surgery, you will most likely have even more...even regret but it's all normal!  Just be happy and enjoy the ride because it is one heck of a roller coaster!!