I seriously need to get it together! (LONG)

What helped me was to not think of it as forbidden foods... but first steps to a new, healthy, active life. I am a control freak and almost reflexively revolt against someone forbidding me from doing something (yes, I'm in therapy hehehe) but thinking of it as a choice instead of a demand really helped.

You can do it... give yourself a break and recognize you are human.

Thank you all for your responses, your encouragement and your (tough) love! I went to bed right after writing my original post last night after telling my sister that I was going to need her help throwing out all the junk that was in the house and having her throw a fit about getting rid of it. Whatever.

I am feeling stronger today. I CAN DO THIS! I WILL DO THIS! I actually have it really good, guys, because from all the posts I've read, most surgeons require a full liquid diet and I actually get to eat on mine... just not much. I have to keep the calories between 890 and 1050 and get in 88-103 grams of protein. I know I'm capable. If I would have skipped the "snacks" yesterday and kept to the meal plan I had laid out, I would have came in UNDER 890 calories and had 126 grams of protein!

It's a struggle to not fall back into old habits and just give up the fight because of one bad day. What's sad is that I didn't even COMPLETELY pig out. Although I went over the total calories for the pre-op diet, I still only had 1600 some calories and that's a FAR cry from the 2500+ I was eating every day just 4 months ago. I'm NOT trying to justify my actions yesterday b/c I know they were wrong, but I'm trying to make myself feel a little bit better.

Anyway, thank you guys. I'll post tonight after I've had a GOOD pre-op diet day 2. :)

Well, of course it's a struggle.  If it was easy we probably wouldn't be at this place where we need WLS, right?  It takes time and effort and a lot of practice to learn to do something new.  Sticking to a meal plan or not eating when we are stressed out or eating healthy food instead of junk is new for most of us.  Like with anything else, we need practice and we'll make mistakes.  The first time you decided you wanted to ride a bike, were you able to do it without falling off one time?  I doubt it.  But you decided to get back on it and keep trying until it became easy.

You've had years and years that you've practiced eating too much and eating the wrong things.  So yeah, you're good at it.  It'll take a while to get good at eating differently.  And even once you learned to ride a bike, you might fall off some time.  It's OK, you just get back on it.