My personal body dysmorphia issues

 Yeah, I loved reading this, all the posts.  2 years ago I would have given anything just to get on the scale and see 180 or put on a size 12 and not have a muffin top.  To me that would have been enough.  Now I am 175 putting on size 10 and I feel fat!  WTF.  

I wonder when it will ever be enough.  I get told everyday that I am thin and I don't need to lose more weight.  Even today the lady at Costco almost didn't let me use my card cause I don't look anything like my picture anymore.  Why do I look in the mirror and see a fat girl?  I am thin, thinner then I have been since HIGH SCHOOL!  Will I my brain ever catch up to my body?

Yes, I too didn't really notice how big I was until I saw photos of me...and after two bouts with cancer (breast and ovarian) I decided I HAD to do something to get healthy.  I still have a long way to go, so I'm not at the point where I'm trying to believe and see myself as thin.  However, I remember that right after high school I dieted and lost 30 pounds.  I am 5'10" and went from 180 to 150.  I remember thinking I was still fat and really needed to lose another 15 lbs.  Even photos at that time didn't convince me.  I look back now and can't believe how skinny I was.  I'm sure since I had the problem of not being happy with my healthy weight back then, I will likely have a hard time believing again.  Especially since this time I am going to have loose skin to contend with.  At least We have somewhere to go to vent...where others understand what we're feeling.