curse you fat days!!!
When will I adjust to how I look?When will I see what everyone else sees?When will I stop looking down at my body and seeing the old Katie? Im ready to embrace the new me but I have all these negative thoughts and feelings holding me back.I went shopping last weekend and walking into certain stores I felt like the people working there were looking at me thinking,why is she in here.I was able to buy things from there but in my head I felt I didnt belong.I hate how mental things are after losing weight.Will it get easier?
Laura
Laura in Texas
53 years old; 5'7" tall; HW: 339 (BMI=53); GW: 140 CW: 170 (BMI=27)
RNY: 09-17-08 Dr. Garth Davis
brachioplasty: 12-18-09 Dr. Wainwright; lbl/bl: 06-28-11 Dr. LoMonaco
"May your choices reflect your hopes and not your fears."
I am the girl that thinks she is skinner than she really is. Imagine being like that! LOL! Up until 7 years ago I was average then I started to put on the weight and became very self concious. But 46 lbs and 1 1/2 months post op, I feel skinny. I know that would sound like a good thing, but I am always worried I am gonna be that girl wearing something I should have known not to wear thinking I was skinner than I was. That makes me self concious! I am always asking my husband to make sure I look alright.
