Just checking in.. it's been a while.. (LONG and a little ranty)
These last few weeks have been hellish. I'd rant, but I already posted a blog about it. To make a long story short: The Cowboy (my SO) left for basic training on the morning of February 6th. I miss him terribly. Bills were completely out of control and I got notices within a day of him leaving saying that my PG&E was getting shut off and my lender was going to foreclose on the house if I didn't get caught up. I found out that The Cowboy had been messaging some girl through Facebook. (I had logged on to his, with his permission, to update his status to let his friends know that he had made it to GA safely). They exchanged phone numbers. I was crushed. Still not sure how to handle that whole thing. My new job is 6 days a week, 10 hours a day. I am happy to be back at work, but add the hour and 45 minute commute to that, and it means I only come home long enough to catch a little sleep. The pay sucks (still better than NO pay, though) and so, I am hanging on by a thread here. I miss seeing my daughter and spending time with my puppies.
Hey.. guess I decided to rant, afterall.
I am up about 8 lbs from my lowest average. Which means that I am averaging about 150 instead of 142. Somehow that is TWO pants sizes. I was in a four, but now my 6s are getting snug. I have to keep reminding myself that I WANTED to gain a little back. It's still scary.
My graveyard guy decided to call in sick tonight. On my one day off. If he were actually sick, I wouldn't bat an eyelash, but he had asked me if he could take tonight off already and I told him at that time that ANY other night I could probably work it, but that Sunday is my ONLY day off and I couldn't do it. Now, I have to. He actually told me that I should call my morning girl and that he could come work her shift in the morning. Umm.. you're too sick to work tonight, but you can make it in at 5:45am without issue? Whatever.
Thank God my dad offered to give me an advance on my tax refund. he deposited $3500 into my account and then I got paid Friday. I paid up the house payments, car payments (last one on the Jeep EVER), Rent a Center, PG&E, internet, garbage, car insurance, home owners insurance, water and filled my propane tanks. I still have property tax, sewer and phone, but I can only do what I can do, right?
To top it all off, my period started today and it's a sucky one.
Ok, now to list my blessings: I might be a bit burnt out, but I HAVE a job. I am lucky. My father saved my ass despite the fact that I am 40 years old (as of January 29th) and should never have allowed myself to get into this situation in the first place. I don't know HOW I could have found a job faster... but, I should have tried harder. It was a close call, but I still HAVE my house, PG&E, car, etc. I have gained 8 lbs, and my pant size has gone up a bit, but I still wear a small shirt, so it seems to be coming back right where I want it. Also, eight pounds is still manageable... it's not the whole 160. I got hit on Saturday. (The guy was homeless, but it still counts, right?) I am sure I have MANY, MANY more things to be thankful for, but I have to jump in the shower and take a quick nap before work.
I miss you guys. I am going to try find time to log in more often. I hope everyone is doing well!
Hey.. guess I decided to rant, afterall.
I am up about 8 lbs from my lowest average. Which means that I am averaging about 150 instead of 142. Somehow that is TWO pants sizes. I was in a four, but now my 6s are getting snug. I have to keep reminding myself that I WANTED to gain a little back. It's still scary.
My graveyard guy decided to call in sick tonight. On my one day off. If he were actually sick, I wouldn't bat an eyelash, but he had asked me if he could take tonight off already and I told him at that time that ANY other night I could probably work it, but that Sunday is my ONLY day off and I couldn't do it. Now, I have to. He actually told me that I should call my morning girl and that he could come work her shift in the morning. Umm.. you're too sick to work tonight, but you can make it in at 5:45am without issue? Whatever.
Thank God my dad offered to give me an advance on my tax refund. he deposited $3500 into my account and then I got paid Friday. I paid up the house payments, car payments (last one on the Jeep EVER), Rent a Center, PG&E, internet, garbage, car insurance, home owners insurance, water and filled my propane tanks. I still have property tax, sewer and phone, but I can only do what I can do, right?
To top it all off, my period started today and it's a sucky one.
Ok, now to list my blessings: I might be a bit burnt out, but I HAVE a job. I am lucky. My father saved my ass despite the fact that I am 40 years old (as of January 29th) and should never have allowed myself to get into this situation in the first place. I don't know HOW I could have found a job faster... but, I should have tried harder. It was a close call, but I still HAVE my house, PG&E, car, etc. I have gained 8 lbs, and my pant size has gone up a bit, but I still wear a small shirt, so it seems to be coming back right where I want it. Also, eight pounds is still manageable... it's not the whole 160. I got hit on Saturday. (The guy was homeless, but it still counts, right?) I am sure I have MANY, MANY more things to be thankful for, but I have to jump in the shower and take a quick nap before work.
I miss you guys. I am going to try find time to log in more often. I hope everyone is doing well!
I am so sorry about your SO. Why are guys such jerks sometimes?
I'm glad your dad could help with the bills, at least you don't have to worry about losing your house now.
Try to check in more often, OK?
I'm glad your dad could help with the bills, at least you don't have to worry about losing your house now.
Try to check in more often, OK?
Kelly
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I am sorry that you are going through so much but I had to laugh when you said you got hit on by a homeless guy. You are doing better then me at this point. I honestly don't know why you aren't getting hit on more. You are very pretty.
I hope things get much better for you.
I hope things get much better for you.
WLS 10/28/2002 Revision 7/23/2010
High Weight (2002) 240 Revision Weight (2010) 220 Current Weight 115.
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