Surgery Moved up to Feb 28th . . . Getting Nervous!
I hear the pain in your words and understand where you are coming from. While we can intellectually realise that obesity, mental illness and gallbladder are all medical issues, society does not weigh them evenly when judgement is concerned...and we are sometimes our worse judges. I too work in the medical field and find it perfectly ok to help my patients but very difficult to become the patient. I recognize that this is not healthy and am working on it....just wanted you to know that opening yourself up in this way is (in my books) okay. We are allowed to feel whatever we feel...but then we should also allow ourselves to examine them and understand them in as healthy way as possible.
I hope you are getting some excellent professional support. A counselor knowledgeable in the area of bariatric surgery would be a very good start. I have found the counselor I am seeing a truly wonderful resource.
Worst case scenerio, if you are not feeling ready yet, you should consider postponing further (till after your important presentation if necessary). I am still pre-op (funnily enough we now have the same surgery date) so can totally relate to your nerves...except I have had 4 months to prepare mentally for this date...
Hope all goes well.
Andrea.
I hope you are getting some excellent professional support. A counselor knowledgeable in the area of bariatric surgery would be a very good start. I have found the counselor I am seeing a truly wonderful resource.
Worst case scenerio, if you are not feeling ready yet, you should consider postponing further (till after your important presentation if necessary). I am still pre-op (funnily enough we now have the same surgery date) so can totally relate to your nerves...except I have had 4 months to prepare mentally for this date...
Hope all goes well.
Andrea.
My surgery date is scheduled for the same as yours... 2/28.... i'm excited.... nervous.... anxious... and ready to move forward... however, i have had quite a few negative conversations with myself about how i got myself into this situation. Why am i overweight? Why can't i stick to a healthy diet and exercise? Surgery is my last resort? Just ugly stuff.. i was embarrased to face the fact that i can't do this on my own... i had to relinquish my power and ask for help... hence the gastric bypass.... I'm ready for this change... i've done alot of research about the surgery... the benefits and the risks... and sure... it's surgery... on the surface and to those who don't know much about it... may think i took the easy way out... but through the education i've gotten from classes and this forum... it will be a far cry from easy... this will require a tremendous amount of effort, dedication and self nurturing. I have forgiven myself for my current weight and health conditions and i am ready..... and it appears that you are too... you have taken that step too. Take care... stay strong and keep us posted... :)