OK, here we go!

 I have officially decided on the RNY. All requirements have been met, saw the Doctor this morning. Sending for insurance approval and my pre-op classes are 4/3 &4/10. 
Hoping for end of April surgery! I now have dual emotions, excited and hesitant.

 Your emotions are totally normal!  I would suggest writing down all of your questions and bring them to  your first appointment.  I also know how nerve racking the decision is and how hard it is for us to let go one of our best friends, food.  After the surgery I have totally looked at everything with food different, I am continuing to do that.  Its nice to eat for nurishment and not for any other reason.  It is also nice for the first period of my life I am not hungry.  Love that fealing.  Odds are you will be fine and a month or less out you too will be in love with your RNY.  Good luck and we will save a seat for you on the loosers bench.

 Thank you! I look so forward to being able to climb stairs without pain, Walk more than a short distance without back pain and exhaustion, losing my cpap machine, gardening, running(eventually), all the things I did before I became so obese!

I wonder how did I ever let myself get to this point?