Surgery tomorrow=emotional tonight

I was calm as a cucumber before. I cried after. Liquids for a week was torture.

I was a basket case before my band slip surgery, though.

It's normal. Say a prayer. Everything will be fine!

 I actually worked from 7 am to 5am (I'm a paramedic) I left work at 5am went and picked up my family drove 2 hrs to hospital an checked in for my surgery... I did that so I wouldn't have time to break down.. Or question what I was doing...  I'm a firm believer in asking for forgiveness and not permission... And I was doing that to myself... An hr after I came to I was balling and squalling.... It was the next day I had a case of buyers remorse for all of about 5 mins.. Then I immediately focused on the wonderful gift I had just given myself and family.. A newer healthier me in the very near future... No regrets  loving every minute of the new me!!! Sending prayers and good thoughts your way!!!! Take a deep breath and enjoy your journey!!!

I think we all can relate what you are going thru i too was awake n worried all night cuz i have never in my life before ever had surgery or even spend the night in a hospital. But u will get plenty of rest tomorrow. My prayers ate with you n wish you the best of luck and a speedy recovery.. See you on the losers bench soon.. God bless

Sending prayers for tonight and tomorrow. That you find peace, that He guides your teams hands and you have as few complications as possible. Remember the 3 little girls you dropped off, ultimately you're doing this for you but also to give them their Mommy for as long as possible. (((HUGS)))
Cherie

 Amy,
 I felt the very same way! I was anxious and worried thinking of all the possible outcomes in my head the night before surgery and even up until the wheeled me down the hall to the Operating room. I think If I actually hadn't had my teenage daughter leaving for camp the same morning and making my husband leave before they took me off to take her to meet her coach I probably would have jumped off the cart !  I was so excited , scared , worried and emotinal that I cried every time my husband or kids looked at me ! But when I checked in the next morning at 515 am time flew by and by 730 I was on my way to the operating room with a very caring bunch of nurses One in particular I don't know her name that just held my hand until I was out  from the anestha . I will probably never know who she was . but just that she cared enough to know I was scared and Just held my hand to comfort me thru it .  I won't say that the days after surgery have been a piece of cake , Some days your just not going to feel great . But I wouldn't go back and make a different decision I'm almost 2 weeks out and getting better everyday. Even though I won't be there in person and I don't know you , I'll keep you in my thoughts and "Hold your hand" if  you need it!

When I started my journey it was for the band.  My insurance didn't cover at the time.  I scheduled RNY and canceled one week prior because I just wasn't at peace with it.  A yr later ins covered the band.  I was really happy because I believe it was the tool for me.  It was a disaster for me.  However, I had learned to eat small healthy meals and my digestive system was happy.  I knew once it was deflated and removed that I still needed a tool to continue my journey.  I prayed and had my family and friends praying with me.  I did go into surgery very peaceful and excited to start my new life.  I am so happy I have done this.  Know that your OH family is praying for you and looking forward to hearing your success stories to come.  In His Love, Barb

I felt the same too.  I think it is because the whole process of the surgery is so long, there's so much to learn, so much to absorb, so much to consider, etc. and it always seemed so far away.  But then all of sudden -- it's here!   It seemed for me that things dragged for so long and then went into light speed the past few days. 

Consider too that although excited and as well planned as we may be, the impact of all those months just catches up; it's pretty overwhelming when you realize the reality of it is tomorrow!

Plus I agree with the others, an entire new door is opening for you tomorrow.  Passing through means saying good-bye to the old 'you' when it's all you've ever known.

In your case too, being separated from your babies is going to come into play.  This is a serious operation and it's hard to be away from your children and know you will be limited by pain, lifting, etc. when you do see them again.  It's called being a good mother!

Hugs, prayers and best wishes for speedy recovery and bright new future!

THanks for all your supportive words. All is well. I will post seperately with an update.

Amy