Having a hard time

Today I have been feeling really down. I am a month and five days out from surgery and still on full liquids because of an ulcer and possible narrowing. I am still vomiting at least once a day. I have a hard time getting in my liquids and protien I dont think I have reached the 640z even once. Everyday I wake up I have a massive headache and feel like I have a lump in my throat and just feel like I want to throw up. I look forward to going to bed at night just so I dont have to try and force down anything else and dread getting up because i know I have to start it all over again. I have no energy and am having a hard time getting my school work done. On my list of full liquids is grits, oatmeal, cream of wheat, sf pudding, and yogurt. The only thing that seems to go ok everytime is the pudding the others one day I can have it and the next I throw it up. The oatmeal is a no go and I worry that its because its a little bit thicher than the others and if thats the case how the heck am I going to be able to move on to the next stage if oatmeal is to thick? My next appointment with my surgeon is at the end of january and we will discuss if he needs to dialate or if I can move on to the next stage. In a month I have lost 38 pounds day of surgery I was 368 and I am now 330  and I feel sad because I dont even feel happy about it. It feels tainted somehow I mean for the first 3 weeks I was in the hospital drinking nothing bu****er. I find I wamyself regretting this more and more everyday and that makes me sad also. I was so excited about this and on day two after the surgery it all went down hill. I just miss my normal life of feeling good and being happy and active with my friends and feeling like im doing well in school. I think to im having a hard time because I usually deal with sadness with food and I dont have that to lean on. I just wish I could go to my friends house on sunday and bring a pizza and a huge pot of bean dip and watch the falcons game( wooo hoooo go falcons) I just want that since of normal back. I dont feel myself at all. I feel like everyday im losing sight of the reasons why I got the surgery in the first place and I know I had some great reasons. I was prepared for this surgery but I was definately not prepared for the complications I have had. I hope I am not coming across as winney but my emotions are so up and down and I feel sick 24/7. I guess I was just looking for encouragement :)

Im pre-op but i would call and get into the surgeon sooner, you are sounding very depressed with every right, that sounds awful, please call the surgeon,even for something for nausea. :( im so sorry

That is exactly what happened to me.  I was so sick the first 7-9 weeks after surgery that I wished I'd never heard of WLS.  I couldn't eat and barely drink.  I was in the ER twice for fluids and the hospital once for a bowel obstruction (4 loooong days).  BUT, it did get better. It too****il about week 11 for me to start feeling better.  It too****il month 3 for me to be able to eat some "real food".  It is worth it, I promise.  At 6 months post-op I feel amazing as will you.  

However, right now is very tough.  Try to drink as much as you can, make yourself. Use a medicine cup to do 2 ounces "shooters" of water, G2, Crystal Light, whatever you can handle.  Drinking 2 ounces of regular grape juice every 2-3 hours will help.  It will help with ketosis and the metallic taste in your mouth (if you have it).  It will also help with energy but adding some carbs.

Hang in there.  Keep drinking...that is most important.  

Jill

Dehydration will give you a headache. Do clear liquids make you vomit, or just the thin gruel? My number one tip for fluid intake is hot no caffeine herbal tea (if it is okay on your plan). The warmth is soothing to a grumpy stomach and it comes in a variety of flavors.

You are feeling down because you aren't feeling well. It's hard to be chipper when you are vomiting and headachy.

It doesn't matter that you lost weight in the hospital because you were drinking water. You lost it. It is still a victory.

Take care. We're here for you.

Amber,
I am sorry to read that you are ill. I agree with the person who told you to try hot herbal tea... Hot beverages (SF Apple Cider and SF Hot Chocolate) helps me to get in the 64 oz of water. Also, have you tried eating hummus? I liked hummus before surgery and now I love it! Lots of protein, very smooth....
Please contact your physician to get an appointment before the end of the month...

It will get better

I'm in a very similar situation myself. I am almost one month out and I can still barely eat solids, and when I do I can only take two or three small bites, anything more and I feel like, or do get sick. I am nauseated from the time I wake up until I go to bed, and the idea of eating just makes me want to cry. All while I am raising kids and going to school on 400 cals a day!

That said, I keep waking up every day trying to stay positive, thinking that it's a new day, and it could be the day things start to improve. I'm drinking my water (that's the only thing I can stomach), drinking skim milk to try and get in some protein, and taking my vitamins as my tummy allows. I've heard from so many people that the first few months can be a struggle like this, and  as time passes it gets so much better. I sure hope so, and I hope that you keep improving every day too! * hugs*