Me (Really long at least for me)
I have neither posted nor have I been on very often in the last month and a half. I was glad to see that at least one person had asked where I was. Honestly, I was very hurt that I only had 2 PMs asking what was up. Where have I been? Well, I tend to withdrawl with things get stressful and my life is VERY stressful at the moment. I withdraw not just from the PC but from everything. I realized I was drifting back into this habit when I was going to bed by 8pm every night. That is not me. I really like to stay up late. I was also sleeping in later than normal...not a good sign. It is a bad habit I really need to break. My hair guy is even amazed that I have shot gray thru the lovely color job that he just did 2 weeks ago! Anyway, that is neither here nor there...
I was looking for some good news and figured I might as well share what I have found on my search. I have been in "Onederland" for a couple of weeks now, I haven't ventured very far into that territory, but I am there. I am also on a STALL. I think this is just to **** me off since everything else seems to make me crazy. Why not my weight too? So, I decided that I needed another "Lift me up" so, I have taken measurements and when I compare them to the ones that I took a month after surgery, I have lost a total of 87.75 inches. That is over 7.3 feet of me. Today I put on a size 13/14 which totally amazed me.(It isn't ready for public display, but it fit!) I have been wearing just plain regular L T-shirts at the school carnival and field day. Amazing. Last year I was poured into a 3X that was too small and I had to wear a very awful black sweater over it and it was 80 degrees. To say the least, I was a fat hot mess last year. This year it was cold and I wore my school sweatshrit and still nearly froze to death.
I am also leaving for DC in the morning (4.30 am) to tour with my 8th graders. I WILL NOT have to ask for a seatbealt extender. I am very THRILLED about that. I have gotten the items that I will need to check in my luggage... protein, protein and more protein. We will be out of the hotel for 12 to 14 hours each day so I am alittle apprehensive about that, but I think I have it figured out.
Finally, Que, my son is graduating this next weekend and having a birthday! I will be home from DC on Thursday, and we have our first family and friends getting here on Tuesday! They are coming from Boston. Pat's parents are coming as well, but won't be here until late Friday night. This should be interesting since we haven't seen them or spoken to them in 4 years plus. My parents haven't seen them in over 17 years....needless to say I have a lot of stress about this. (Pat and I have been married for 20 years.)
Pat is still looking for a job. It has been 6 weeks since he was laid off... Either he is over qualified for the jobs he has interviewed for, or he doesn't have a MBA or the right experience for what they think they are looking for. He is thinking about going back to school full time and getting either his MBA or a Law Degree. Either way, I really just want something to be settled here. This has also been a HUGE stress on me. I do not like being in charge of the family insurance, money etc.
I think that many of you who actually know me know that I am not an overly 'talkative' person. In the last 10 months, I have never typed more than a couple of lines on this board at one time and I haven't ever spoken out at the lunch bunch, dinner club or our Baptist support group. I completely over think everything that I am going to say, thus, I don't say anything, since by the time I am ready to say it....we are on to a new topic. So this is a new experience for me since I am really just typing what is on my mind at the moment. I am a very private person typically, but when a friend of mine, who has been worried about me asked if I had leaned on my support group, I had to honestly tell her "no". I didn't even go last month...I wasn't sure if my issues were worth talking about and well, by the time I would over think what I wanted to say, everyone would be headed out anyway...so Pat and I went for a really nice drive that night instead. I feel that I have to be a good example for her since she is seeing Dr. Spaw to have surgery this summer. Another friend is also seeing Dr. Spaw for lap band this summer and I really feel like I have to give support a chance.
Now, with that said, I am leaving town tomorrow at 4.30 am and will not be back on a P****il at least Thursday sometime...but with Quinton's Bday on Friday, Graduation on Saturday and 14 people in from out of town... and the holiday weekend... I might be out of pocket for even longer.......
Moppie
"I thank thee, O my God, for all the graces thou hast bestowed on me." St. Therese of Lisieux
"I thank thee, O my God, for all the graces thou hast bestowed on me." St. Therese of Lisieux
First off - WE LOVE YOU!!! {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}
Second - I have thought of you, but thought you were busy dancin' the night away! When you didn't answer Trina I figured with the end of year, you were very busy.
Third - WE LOVE YOU!!! {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}
Fourth - I didn't know Pat had been laid off. I'm so sorry to hear that. I know that feeling about trying to find a job!!! Has he tried some the specialized temp agencies?
Fifth - have I mentioned WE LOVE YOU!!! {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}
Sixth - you will do fine in DC and with the holiday.
Seventh - you go girl!! ONDERLAND!!!
Eighth - I'll mention it again - WE LOVE YOU!!! {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}
Beth
WE LOVE YOU!
I am sorry that you are stressed out right now. I wish I could make you feel better. I thought you had just been busy too like a few other of our precious gems: You, Tara and Freddie. I have missed you all.
When you get back from DC, let us know and us girls will all get together and have a good time doing something. Maybe we could have a makeover night. Wouldn't that be fun? We can pretty ourselves up one evening and go out to dinner... NO men, just us gals... or we could do something else...
Sounds like you have done absolutely wonderful with the weight loss! 13/14? Girl you got it goin' on!!! Please let us know when you return.
HUGZ!
I, too, have been very out-of-pocket lately, so i didn't realize you had not been on posting (cuz i haven't been). 
i have another teacher friend, at my boys' school, that hasn't been in touch w/ her support group in 2 months, and was begging me Friday for some support. I think it's definitely time for many of us to "re-group".
I haven't been to a Baptist support group in months, have only been to one lunch bunch lately and still have to make it to a dinner club.
This is such a crazy time of year for parents, that i'm sure it's even crazier for teachers. And for one who is both - and that child is graduating... WHEW! Girl, you need some support!! {{{HUG}}}
I hope you have a great time on your trip to D.C. Congratulations on making it to one-derland! 
Goodbye forever to an unwanted 7+ feet! WOW!!!
No more seatbelt extensions for you, little lady! If you can remember, drink your protein drinks first thing in the morning when you get up - before you leave your hotel. Then drink one when you're back in your hotel before you go to bed. your protein is most effective when you first wake up, right after you exercise, and just before bed. You are really good at making wise choices throughout your day, and getting in lots of water/fluids! You will come back in fine shape! {{{HUG}}}
So very sorry to hear about Pat's job. What does he do? I so relate to your feelings of not liking being the "money maker" for the fam. John lost his job on April 21st, so we're right there with ya! {{{HUG}}}
I drove by your house last weekend on my way back from Vitamin Shoppe in Cool Springs. I thought of you and wondered how you were doing. I wish I had called you when I thought I of you. When you get back from your trip, and all the festivities and company come to an end, maybe we can get together for awhile. {{{HUG}}}
I will be praying for you and the stress associated w/ your in-laws coming. It sucks that a time as exciting as your child's graduation has to be tainted w/ stress like this! But I have seen your strength at work --- and you and Pat are strong --- you will make it through this. Try to enjoy your son and this milestone in his life - and if "crap" crops up, just flu****! You can deal with cleaning the toilet(s) later! 
{{{HUG}}}
Well, off you go! have a good time and we'll talk when you get back.
~ Tara
i have another teacher friend, at my boys' school, that hasn't been in touch w/ her support group in 2 months, and was begging me Friday for some support. I think it's definitely time for many of us to "re-group". I haven't been to a Baptist support group in months, have only been to one lunch bunch lately and still have to make it to a dinner club.
This is such a crazy time of year for parents, that i'm sure it's even crazier for teachers. And for one who is both - and that child is graduating... WHEW! Girl, you need some support!! {{{HUG}}}
I hope you have a great time on your trip to D.C. Congratulations on making it to one-derland! Goodbye forever to an unwanted 7+ feet! WOW!!!
No more seatbelt extensions for you, little lady! If you can remember, drink your protein drinks first thing in the morning when you get up - before you leave your hotel. Then drink one when you're back in your hotel before you go to bed. your protein is most effective when you first wake up, right after you exercise, and just before bed. You are really good at making wise choices throughout your day, and getting in lots of water/fluids! You will come back in fine shape! {{{HUG}}}
So very sorry to hear about Pat's job. What does he do? I so relate to your feelings of not liking being the "money maker" for the fam. John lost his job on April 21st, so we're right there with ya! {{{HUG}}}
I drove by your house last weekend on my way back from Vitamin Shoppe in Cool Springs. I thought of you and wondered how you were doing. I wish I had called you when I thought I of you. When you get back from your trip, and all the festivities and company come to an end, maybe we can get together for awhile. {{{HUG}}}
I will be praying for you and the stress associated w/ your in-laws coming. It sucks that a time as exciting as your child's graduation has to be tainted w/ stress like this! But I have seen your strength at work --- and you and Pat are strong --- you will make it through this. Try to enjoy your son and this milestone in his life - and if "crap" crops up, just flu****! You can deal with cleaning the toilet(s) later! {{{HUG}}}
Well, off you go! have a good time and we'll talk when you get back.
~ Tara SW: 246 CW: 133 Christmas goal: 130
Tawyna,
I hope you know you mean so much to us and to me. I am here for you always if you need a friend, a shoulder or just someone to talk to. I am sorry you are under so much stress. You are a wonderful person and so is Pat I can't help but believe you both deserve all the best. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make all the ugly go away for you. I want to apologize for not being there like I should. My door is always open. I LOVE YOU hun !!!! Like everyone here does. I am proud of your accomplishment and entering Onderland, can't help being jealous but still very proud of you !!! You have done so great on your journey. I do pray things improve and that Pat gets a job offer he deserves so much. Never doubt my care for you, I am here for you always.
Juanita
Hey Tawnya
So glad to finally hear from you. I don't have an excuse for not checking on you. I just didn't do it. I thought about it when I read Trina's post asking where you were. When you didn't answer her I didn't think you would answer mine. I'm sorry to hear that Pat is still out of work. I know how hard it is. I was the sole breadwinner here for 3 years while my husband went to college full-time. I know the stress you're under and how it makes you just want to lay in bed and cry. It will get better!! Think of all the good things going on right now. Your son's graduation (mine graduates this sunday), your trip to DC (I would love to go there), and you are in a size 13/14!!! and in onederland!!! That's all great news. Please to come to the support group meeting next month. We will all help you or listen to you vent or whatever it is you need to do. I believe you have my phone number. Call me if you need to talk. Melissa
Thank you all so much. I did see Trina's post and I also saw that 32 people looked at it and no one said "Yeah, where is she." So I guess I became even more disheartened. I don't know if any of you all have gone thru "mood swings" with WLS, but, usually I am a very stable person and I have cried more in the last 3-4 weeks than I have in the last 20 years. I even cried in front of my 8th graders the other day. Couple that with over thinking and little ever gets said. At least very little by me. I think I should have a new resolution....talk more... and listen the same amount.... or more too.
With that said, I am going to ramble a bit.... this is a new experience for me.... I am going to "type off the cuff as it were" I am in Washington DC and I have no idea if I have all my protein in or not... I think I did, tonight's dinner was a fab evening with 44 kids at none other than Chuck E Cheese Mouse resturant. It was lovely. NOT. But it was loud and full of very small people who drool. Did you know it is the Birthday capital of the universe...apparently for 2 and 3 year olds and a bunch of kids from Tennessee too. I am exhausted from the day we had to be at BNI at 4.30am and we arrived in DC and had a very full day starting at the White House, going to Ford's Theatre and the house across the street...then going to the Regean building for lunch followed by a trip to the Washington Monument to look out of the windows at the top, walking to the Holocast museum, going to the National Archives and finally.... @ 6pm getting to CEC for the yecky pizza dinner. Thank goodness for RTD Protein shakes since there is nothing there worth eating... we finally checked into the hotel, the kids swam for what seemed like forever and I have finally gotten them all "taped" into their rooms and I am ready for bed too. Thank you to those that replied... you have no idea how much it means to me at this very moment in my life....
Sleep tight......I will try to do the same here in our Nation's Capital.....
Moppie
"I thank thee, O my God, for all the graces thou hast bestowed on me." St. Therese of Lisieux
"I thank thee, O my God, for all the graces thou hast bestowed on me." St. Therese of Lisieux
Sounds like DC is an experience so far. Wish I could be there. : ( Any place new right now would be good to me. It is good to express your self it relieves those pent up emotions and frustrations. My mood swings have changed since surgery yes. At times I feel like I'm on top of the world and feel good about myself other days I feel unworthy and still feel like I am too fat. We all deal with this in some way or another I think. I am glad you are still opting for protein instead of pizza or whatever else the kids are eating. Keep up with the protein shakes and try to take care of yourself. I wish you a good visit while your there and a safe trip home. Keep us updated if you can. Love ya !!!!!
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