Dont get mad at me.....but

Cath, I doubt anyone here would flame you for thinking what most of us think! I would love to be 10lbs lighter buyt I realise I will not get there without plastics - I have tried but my body is telling me that it is very happy here. I am hoping when I get my first round of plastics on Sept 10th that he removes enough skin to help me get there. BUT if I don't, you know that is going to be alright too. I will never be a 2 or a 4 - and I think that is just something I have accepted - finally! I think I was born bigger than that!!  I look at my young son and I feel blessed that I will be here for him and be able to keep up with him - that was my original reason for surgery - not the weight loss alone.  It is alright to have wishes but never forget that you are already successful and beautiful!  And there are still many many overweight people out there who will never have the surgery and will remain very unhealthy. We broke the mould!!  We did something about our health issues and will live to fight another fday! You have done remarkably well - never forget your successes and where you would have been today if you had not had surgery! Jackie

No frustrations here either.  Understand exactly what you mean.  We were told in our nutrition classes that it takes about 2 years for our brains to catch up to our bodies and realize our success.  You aren't at that 2 year mark yet.  Try sitting and thinking about all of the things you have accomplished with your weight loss, your statements about the lessening of pain, walking steps, etc.  Think about all the crazy little wow moments and how far you have come.  We are all a success in our own way, wether we make the exact goal we had in mine or exceed it or whatever.  The bad food choices is something we all go through.  It is our habit, we comfort with food.  Is it sort of a sabotage, yeah but we have the power to pick ourselves up and make today a better day.  I think this gloomy, chilly, wet weather has an effect on the moods too.  I have come to the conclusion that since we don't have all of those fat cells to horde up the hormones, we do have more emotional things to deal with because those hormones now have more power in our bodies.

So my words or wisdom for the day, pick yourself up and start fresh, go shopping, buy a hot new outfit, have your sweetie take you out for a nice date, and realize how beautiful and special you are.

Ok, let me tell you something. I did not reach my goal weight until I was 2 years and 4 months po. Yep, took that long. The thing is, you have to stay consistant, stay the course and stay away from the things that make you gain or hold on to weight. For me those things are sugar, Diet soda and white bread. Diet soda, especially is horrible. Just because it says"Diet" doesn't mean it's good for you. I also stay away from processed foods, yes even those Lean Cuisines are bad for you. It took me awhile to make the connection but once I did, the weightloss started again and the extra pounds came off. I do have to say that PS helped me focus on my diet and health. I spent all that money on surgery and I'll be damned if I'm going to go back to being obese again. Oh, and I totally understand the self-sabotage thing. Clea out your fridge and pantry and throw out the junk, If it is not around, you won't be tempted by it.  Try not to eat out too much and try to eat before 7 pm. Get all your water and vitamins. As for exercise, I hate it but know it necessary. I only do yoga, eliptical and weights now. I'm happy with that. I also park at the back of parking lots and walk the extra steps. Everything counts.

No flaming from me either Cath.  We all like Tink said make those bad choices now and again and like someone else said we have to get back up and brush ourself off and continue on.   For example here is what happened to me yesterday.   I went to see my reg doc and he was like wow you look fantastic, how do you feel.   I am like I am a new woman doc.   Then not an hour later I bought a bag of candy...nope not for my son who is six but for me.   You know those orange slices.  I was thinking well if I only eat one every once in a blue moon it won't hurt me.  I ate 2 then when I got home I got mad at hubby and I ate another.   You know what I did today?   I threw the bag away.  Before I would have never done that I would have said well shoot there goes the diet.  Oh well I'll just eat this bag and then not get any more.   Wow have things sure changed, yesterday not so good, today I am proud of myself again.   Hang in there sister friend you will eventually get to a place where you will feel comfortable with you.    ((((hugs)))) Anna

Don't want to steal this thread but Anna you are looking great these days!!! Jackie

Thanks Jackie, I feel great too!!!  Life is so awesome.   Anna