Has anyone got comments about this??
Chris, I TOTALLY agree with everything you've said. And don't worry...I'm not beating myself up for it. I'm just recognizing MY responsibility in it. You see, up until I had this surgery, I honestly thought that my heart condition was the ONLY reason I became fat. Then when I started monitoring WHAT I was putting into my body, I had to stop the denial. It wasn't that I was over-eating...it was the stuff I was eating.
I need to figure out what MY triggers are so I can avoid them. And I can't make others responsible. I did not have those things in the house...I sent Matt to the store to get them. While it would be easy to tell him to refuse future requests, that's not fair to him. I'M the one that needs to be responsible enough & strong enough to avoid temptation like that. So yes, soul searching & honesty are what I need to concentrate on.
I must admit that I feel better about the whole thing BECAUSE I was honest with myself. And at this point, I NEEDED to be honest with you guys too. I would have felt like a complete hypocrite had I not said something. How can I encourage others & help lift them up when they are down or going through what I did & not come clean? To my way of thinking THAT would be dishonest & I deplore liars. We each trust each other immensely here & we rely on honesty. So I don't want anyone to think that I was look for a pat on the back or anything. I'm just being honest with something that I was very ashamed of.
To end on a good note, I am going for my introductory visit to Curves this morning. I have on work-out clothes for the first time in my life! (ballet clothes don't count) My cardiologist revised the 50-lb rule & said I can start an easy work out now...yeahhhh! I'll let ya'll know how it goes. In the meantime, THANK YOU ALL for your love, support, patience, & understanding.
Hugs!
Ann
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Try the Myoplex Light. There is less protein but also waaaayyyy less calories, carbs etc. It's really not bad either. Kinda tastes like really weak chocolate milk...not too much aftertaste and no protein taste to speak of.
Good luck!
Christine
253/158/144/138
start/current/surgeon's goal (80%)/my goal(100%)
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Hey Ann! Well first don't beat yourself up about the binge. Some days it happens, just dust yourself off and get back on track. So for the protien, keep trying different things. I am not really sure on the calorie count, it does seem high but you are lap band so your requirements may be different, same as using the whey protein, this might not be a restriction for you since you are banded. Give your nut. a call and talk about it. I always liked the Isopure Zero Carb, dutch chocolate. :)
Courtney 305/155/150/225 high/goal/low/current 
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