FREAKING OUT HERE!!!!!

Ok well I am less then 48 hours from surgery!!!! I am working today and tomorrow and then surgery is Wednesday. I am trying really hard to pay attention to what I have to do before I leave (I am a nurse at a Family Practice) and make sure that I have left my girls with enough help to cover me being gone. I mean I am ready (got all the vitamins, foods, protein, you name it) But still I can sit here and if I pay too much attention to thinking about the surgery I could literally break down in tears. I know I don't post a lot of things but sometime I think I need to vent to people who know what I am going thru. Granted my support system at work is PHENOMENAL!!!!!! But all everyone is saying is "Oh...You'll be fine"......HOW DO THEY KNOW???I don't. I mean I anticipate that everything will go without any complications but this sense of panic is sitting in the pit of my stomach. I find myself spacing out even when my DH is trying to talk to me. I know it's normal and I know everything will be alright but it's hard!!! VERY HARD! I was really just looking to vent a little. I hope everyone has a great Monday.  ALSO>>>>>>>>>>> How does one acquire an angel???

Take a deep breath, see if the vent helped any, if not vent some more.  Everything you are feeling is normal & definitely a pain in the butt to have to go through.  2 more days & you will be on the losing side & it will all be a memory. Okay so you mentioned an angel.  Usually all you have to do is ask for one.  I would love to volunteer to be there for you, however being in Northern VA & with my wedding on Saturday, I am way to preoccupied to be of any service to anyone right now.  Hopefully one of the great board members who is closer to you, will step up to the plate.

Thank You very much Courtney. I appreciate the offer and I COMPLETELY understand, Your wedding day is going to be SO memorable as well. I wish you and your spouse the Best Of Luck and happiness in your life together. Thank You again and I can't wait.....

As all have already told you your nerves are very normal. Vent away thats why we are here. I wish you all the best w/ your surgery and you will do great and like they said it will be over before you blink your eyes. God Bless ya and wishing you a speedy recovery... An angel just checks in on ya visits if they can call you call them an posts here to let us know your well and through your surgery. There are some great ones close to you anyone of them would be wonderful.

Ok....deep breath in...now out........feel better?   I cannot tell you how many times I felt the same way with each of my surgeries and if it had not been for this board I think I would have just gone crazy. First off..you need to relax.  Do you have an experienced surgeon?  Do you trust him?  I recently found out that while yes, there are complications that can arise, if you do not trust your surgeon, you will have a real problem. Second....always remember that what you put out is what you will attract.  If you put out good thoughts about your surgery, you will have good results and vice versa.  Its the law of attraction.  Close your eyes and visualize yourself doing great with the surgery....vsualize yourself getting out of the bed after surgery and walking around and the visualize the happy and supportive faces of your support system as you walk your laps. Third.....ask yourself if you are truely ready for this surgery.  Is there something within you that is holding you back?  What is it?  Can you resolve it before your surgery so you can move on or is it something beyond the surgery that cannot be resolved?  if not can you move forward with the surgery?  Really be honest with yourself.  Why are you so focused on the surgery?  What really fills your mind? Unfortunately, I cannot be your angel - heck right now as I am recouping from my LBL and BL I can barely be my own angel.  But....I'm here on and off during the day as I recoup.  You can message me or post here and I'd be happy to offer what I can. Good luck to you!

Hi Sweetie...OM goodness....everyone on this board know exactly where you are coming from!!!!  Nerves????  Been there done that... Just relax and start pictureing yourself dropping weight and getting healthy.  You have made a decision to lose this weight and use this wonderful tool.  Just relax (yeah right) and enjoy the wonderful ride ahead of you.  You will have a few days of discomfort but well worth it.    With you being a nurse, you have more knowledge than most of us and will pull this off like a champion.  We are here for ya... Hugs, Betsy

Good Luck on your surgery!!! Get ready for an amazing ride - everything will be fine!! Just think positive thoughts and get ready mentally to be thin - and more impotantly - HEALTHY!!! David

I can remember the feelings very well. I am almost 11 months out but it seems like yesterday I was laying in the hospital waiting to be wheeled into surgery. That's when my nerves really kicked in. I was scared, but more importantly, I was ready to be healthy. I wanted this surgery more than I have wanted anything before. What do you want from your angel? I drive a school bus and Wednesday I get off my route at 9am and have to be back on the bus at 1pm. I thrn get off agian at 4:15. When is your surgery scheduled for? And what hospital are you going to? I am going to PM you with my cell number. I live at the beach so I'm not that far away. If you need to vent some more, feel free. You can even PM me. Take deep breathes and know you are doing this for your health.

I havent had my surgery yet, so I dont know how much help I can be to you as an angel being that I havent been through it yet... But I am already anticipating the nerves and the fears. I can tell you that from where I am currently, I can percieve myself thinking the positive thoughts. Think about waking up from surgery and hearing that everything went wonderfully, think about getting into that goal outfit, or going shopping for the first time at goal weight. Think about all the wonderful things that lay ahead of you...just 24 more hours till the rest of your life!!! I will pray for your nerves and your surgery tonight and I cant wait to hear all about it! Brandi~

Good am - you are "normal!" Yep, I said NORMAL to be experiencing these thoughts and feelings. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the responses you've gotten before mine. They are right on the money. It was incredibly hard to pay attention to anything in the days leading up to surgery. I mean seriously it was a mad house at work, my oldest was 2 1/2, my hubs was freaking, my family was freaking & friends too and basically it got down to the day of (a Wednesday also) and I got to the hospital and basically gave it to God. I said look here I don't want to feel all this anxiety, I don't want to worry/freak out anymore and I'm figuring it like this God if you lead me to it you're going to lead me THROUGH it. Dontcha know I'm HERE & I'll be 5 years post op in January and I still remember those feelings like yesterday. I thought about every complication regarding surgery and THEN I thought about every complication I'd endure WITHOUT surgery. I realized I wanted to LIVE. I have so much I want to accomplish and not having surgery will defintely have kept me from doing those things. Vent away!!! That is what we are here for!!! If any of this was "EASY" then we wouldn't be conversing back and forth and Life would be BORING!!!!!!!!! So, thoughts and prayers to you and know that we are here and God is with you!!! All best and prayers are coming your way today and moving forward....