I TOTALLY screwed up!!! (but I'm kinda proud!?!)

I keep doing this... (I'm pre-op) screwing up my diet!

I have been doing SERIOUS low carb, Atkins style, for 2 months today... and I have lost about 42lbs

BUT The last 2 weeks or so I have been really slipping.  I have spent two weeks just fighting to stay around 272, mostly becuase I have been letting cheats slip in... and when I cheat, I kind of tend to do mini binges.

I had one last night, only my 2nd in two months, but I was feeling pretty bad about myself.  I had just signed up for myfittnesspal.com and had planned my dinner and was so proud of how I was doing...

Then a shift in routine threw me totally off.  I had to go for an unexpected follow up for a wrist surgery out of town (nothing major) so I found myself and my daughter out and about at dinner time (she's 4).  She wanted to go to Texas Roadhouse (aka "the place with the peanuts") and I have eaten very successfully there before so I said sure!

Well... I ate a couple of her fries... then at the end I caved and ate a roll.  Later that night I ate the rest of the leftover fries and another roll, then I snacked on junk.  I was SO ashamed... I had done good all day!

Well, today I logged in to myfittnesspal and looked at what should have been, then I was brutally honest and changed it to what it really was... I ate about 2,826 calories yeaterday.

Then I got to thinking... wow... that's not TOO bad considering, so I went to a calorie couter site on canger.org and put in my starting weight (315) and my, at best, "lite" activity level... it would have been taking me around 5,000 calories a day to maintain that weight!!!  To be fair, I have PCOS and insulin resistance, and I don't think I was alway****ting that mark, even at my high weight, but the numbers don't lie and I had to be getting pretty dang close to maintain at 315, right?

SO... I continue on my WL journey, a bit wiser, more accountable, and knowing that even on my BAD day, I'm still eating about TWO THOUSAND calories LESS than I must have been averaging out before I started this journey!!!

AND I don't even have my sleeve yet!!!

42lbs is great and yes almost everyone of us do mess up, I say you pick yourself up and start over today.  I think that carbs may be a trigger for you so in the future be mindful of that.  I must when I was on my pre-op diet and wanted to "cheat" it was with a protein, but I love meat so that is why but also protien is great.  I have no problems staying away from pasta, breads, rice so that is wasy for me, but I see you like carby stuff so that is what I say, I may be wrong just a suggestion.  Keep up the good work and good luck.

Thanks!  I was feeling sad that no one responded :-)

I think you are 100% right... Carbs are a HUGE problem for me... I am trying to be mindful, but they keep dragging me back in!

Thanks again!!!

Don't beat yourself up over this. If dieting were easy and we didn't slip we wouldn't need surgery right? If I could have stuck to a plan, worked out, cut calories and stayed away from coca colas I would have never needed the surgery because I never would have been fat. But guess what, I couldn't do it. I had high cholesterol, sleep apnea, depression, and joint pain. Now, 5 months out and 82# I don't fret over those binges anymore.
Hang in there! YOU CAN DO THIS!

Kanga- Know how you feel.  I went to town yesterday to run errands and pick up new glasses.  Decided I'd go for Chinese.  Well I'm still suffering today for one plate of Chinese food.  Was it the good stuff like steam vegetables, etc...  NOOOOOOOooooo!  Chinese spare ribs, crab rangoons, pork lo mein and pork fried rice.  I chewed chewed chewed trying to fool myself that I was showing restraint. 

I have had the worst gas pains since yesterday afternoon.  It's like a giant bubble is sitting under my liver.  Three weeks of low carb and low fat blown away.  Now if I could just figure a way to burst the bubble of gas that would be marvelous.

This morning I faithly put it all into myfitnesspal.com.  The computer very politely informed me what my weight would be in 5 weeks.  Significantly different number than the day before yesterday.  But today I have the agony of the gas bubbles to remind me to be faithful to the path I've chosen.  Gonna have to work on better gas relief though!  Hang in there lady.  It will get better and it's a learning process not a self flagellation process.

Sorry to hear you are in pain :-(

Our bodies do try to teach us though huh?

I am trying to stay positive!!!

Thanks for all of the understanding!!!