a repost from my blog.

Well post-op testing completed yesterday, and after a day of panic and a lot of help from the forum, I think I have myself under control, Sorry for that moment of weakness, Wow my life has become one big roller coaster ride of emotions. I have never felt so out of control , I will certainly be glad when I finally settle into my new life. honestly I can think of some reasons to not go through with this surgery, but I can think of more to go ahead with my dream. so Ive decided to put my fears to bed and dare to dream, Ive after all done all the right things I have the right surgeon, have had good pre-op care, and thanks to this, and to the forum I am very well informed, I don't know what else I can do, sooooooo I'm taking a big breath and jumping in, I'm not going to allow myself to say " what if ".. Move over make way for Fanny I'm on my way!

I may need to reaffirm this again before Monday, lol, but for right now thanks to all of you I'm in a good place!

We have all been there and it is scary, but life is scary.  There is no guarantee that you will wake up tomorrow morning, or not get hit by a car or some other horrible thing.  You have to live your life in-spite of the fear of "what if".  If you have truly done your homework and it sounds like you have, take a deep breath and surrender to whatever the universe has in store for you, the odds are wildly in your favor with this surgery as long as you are in good surgical hands.  I wish you all the luck in the world on Monday, but you will not need it, you will be almost certainly be just fine.  It is only after the surgery that the true adventure begins.  I say, dream big this time around, you have a great chance of getting everything you are hoping to get out of this.

Thanks Elina, I'm so glad for people like you on this forum, You are an inspiration, I hope I do as well, Thanks again.

I had my surgery a week ago.  And I was the same way.  Scared to death.  It was not as bad as I thought it would be.  Dont worry.  Everythings going to be ok.  When I woke up yesterday (made a week since my surgery) I didnt even feel like I had a surgery.  I felt GREAT!!!!  Good Luck!!!

Thanks Kristina M, I dont know why I freaked out after pre-op ed, it was All stuff I already knew, it all seemed to crash in on me, Im better now will be better post op, but Im OK now, guess we all can use a hand up once in a while Congrats on your success and more to come.

We have all been in your shoes ! I had the same fears , I think we all did in some way or another.Take a deep breath and get ready this is a wonderful feeling.I turned 46 yesterday and the only regret I have is not doing it sooner.Welcome to our world!!!

Thanks Kim, At least I know Im not the only one who has felt this way thanks again.

Girl, you are allowed to have a moment of weakness.  Its all part of the process!!

Thanks Fay, A few hours ago I wasnt sure I could do this, dont know what Id do without you all.

Glad you are feeling calmer.  Let us know how it goes.  Good luck!!