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I'm sorry things are hard for you right now. If you are thinking about going to see someone to talk to then you should do it. Sometimes when you have a lot of changes and things going on in your life it is helpful to have someone to talk to who doesn't know you. I definately found this to be so. I hope that things get better for you!
There's an old saying"The grass may look greener in the other yard but, it still needs to be mowed." We all have challenges and some people's lives may "look" easier however they may have already overcome many challenges to get there. If life were all easy there would be no challenge or growth. I always used to tell my daughter, nobody ever said life was fair. It all depends on how you deal with it and yes if you truely feel this way on an everyday basis, some counseling would be in order.