looking back...

 i've been daydreaming a lot lately about how happy i am with my vsg decision and last year at this time was still struggling with "dieting", trying to control my addiction.  i journal about twice a month on fitday.com and looked back to last december/january.  then and for the previous 13 years it's the same post that goes something like this: 
today i'm going to do it.  i'm going to eat only what i've planned and then stop.  in 3 months i want to have lost 10-15 pounds. this time i can do it, i know it!  

etc., etc., etc.  

my journals now are much different.  not even concentrating on food, but on how my day is going other than eating, what i'm feeling, and what i'm looking forward to.  this is truly such a blessing that i don't feel i have to "obsess" about food anymore, and that leaves me free to truly enjoy life. 

i am thankful. 

It is good that you have that to look back on to see how far you have come!