I get just what I need here

I am still screwed up when it comes to food!  I have been sick this week, with a fever and stomach virus that knocked me out for 2 1/2 days.   Of course, having vomitted (only 1x thank goodness), and not being able to eat much of anything for 2 days, had an effect on the scale.  I have never been anywhere near anorexic or bulimec - I love to eat too much and throwing up, etc. is just too gross to do on a regular basis.  But a couple of times in my life, I have briefly felt a high from not eating and feeling lighter, luckily coming to my senses before it went far enough to be a danger.  I have to admit that the thought of not eating or eating very little did cross my mind as the numbers on the scale went down.   But yesterday, when I was able to stay up and go onto the computer, I came here and heard from so many of you, vets, newbies, and everyone in-between, what I needed to hear.  And back I was this morning and briefly  throughout the day.  Here I am again tonight.  I have had to eat a little lighter, because my stomach has still been a bit iffy.  But I have followed my program yesterday and today, as well as I could, and the scale is just fine.  I am zeroing in on onederland and it will be great, but it must happen because I'm following the plan I've been following all along, not because I am manipulating food to get there faster.  I'm planning on my usual nightcap of a glass of skim milk with sf Hersheys to make sure I've gotten all of my protein and fluids.  Here I get what I need, which is why I keep coming back, because I don't ever want to go back to the hell I was in before.  Here is where I get well.  Mary

Good for you!

I'm sorry you've been sick an dhope that you recovery quickly. 

Thanks for the tip of skim milk with sf Hersheys.  I never thought of that but will check it out.

Keep on keeping on, following your plan and marching ever closer to your goal.

Thank you for sharing.
Another Mary. :-)

Thanks Mary!

I have to say that some days - like today - I can't help but be disappointed to find myself *still* addicted to food after bariatric surgery and almost 6 months of imperfect abstinence.  It sucks!!

But back here in reality I know it's just how my messed up wiring is and I'm at least fortunate to *know* what's wrong with me.  I spent a lot of time thinking I was a weak-willed failure.

I am kind of having the opposite problem.  I am becoming aware that something is definitely scary about onederland!  But I know I'll get through it, with everyone here's help.

As I too approach onederland, it is exciting, but there is a little fear too.  It's been soooo long since I've been there, it's almost like unchartered territory.  I have such a long history of my addiction convincing me to sabotage myself whenever I've had even modest success with eating, that my radar is up, and hopefully working.  You're right though, in that we do know what's wrong and coming here helps us to get through the scary parts. 

Sorry you've been sick, glad your on the mend, onderland is right around the corner for you congratulation to you, keep working that sleeve and you'll be fine. we are all in this together.

Thanks!  I agree, we are all in this together.  That's what keeps me coming back here.  You're doing pretty darn good yourself boomer!

I agree with you completely. I too get the added support, knowledge and insight from those who have gone through the surgery that you wouldn't otherwise normally get. I think this forum is what is going to help make my surgery more successful than it would be otherwise. Family and friends being supportive is fantastic but they've not gone through the trials and tribulations of actually being sleeved ,and I can only get that here. Thank you for the post and prayers going up that you get well quickly and continue on your fantastic journey! I'll be joining you soon.

Thanks!  I stumbled onto this website the day I'd had my consult with the surgeon.  I wanted the sleeve, but the surgeon was talking up rny, and I had to make a decision.  I did a search for info about the sleeve, and found this site.  It has been a lifesaver from that first day.  I got so much support from people who sahred their experiences and reasons for choosing the sleeve, that I was able to make an informed decision.  I know I made the right one.  When are you scheduled?