So f'n angry tonight

I spent years eating myself into this horrible shape. Now I've had this surgery, I quit emotional eating and I have to eat or protien power up every 2 ******g hours. I'M NOT HUNGRY. I'M NEVER HUNGRY. I don't want to eat but if I don't I get weak feeling. I feel like I'm force feeding myself. 

I am getting all my fluids and protien but I just don't care at this moment.

 It gets better - you will get in the habit of eating at certain times and just do it.  You may even feel some hunger again.  For me it isn't the gnawing hunger of old, more a need to refuel.  You will also start getting a taste for things when it's not just protein shakes and protein, protein protein.

It will get better soon!

I can imagine how hard it is right now for you. I know the feeling of eating oneself into the shape we got. Now its a whole new concept. Your really not force feeding. Try looking at it like this. Think of your body as a car. A car needs fuel or else it doesn't go. So if you dont eat then you get weak and you cant go. I will soon be where you are soon. I know it has to really be mind blowing. Before eating was fun and a feel good effect. Now its only a necessity. Hugs to you and get that anger out. Feel free to message me and I will listen anytime

 I am just so happy you aren't having a stall on top of being pissed.  Congrats on no hunger and no longer being controlled by food.  That is the beauty of this surgery.

Feel better!

You'll get through this, and it will be better.  For sure.  The first six weeks is the hardest.  It will become routine after a while.  It will be easier just to get your protein in 3-4 meals and you won't have to think about doing it every two hours.  In fact, you'll start to feel how freeing it is not to worry about eating all the time.  You'll get there.

It will pass.  I was so sick of going through the motions of eating.  I've been through so many phases in just 12 short weeks. 

It wasn't until I re-read what I wrote that I saw the NSV in this. I'm not emotional eating. Thank you all for your support. I gave in and had some soup for dinner and some of my venting/whiny feeling went away lol

 Can I ask what NSV is???

Non Scale Victory (I am trying to catch on to all the lingo too!)

 Hugs to you! I've so been exactly where you are and can flip back there in less than a minute and I do so get it. I hope you can find the humor in this.  You are adorable!  But I know it gets really frustrating. Feel free to pm me anytime to *****  I'm really good at it too. ;)