Feel Weird in my Skin
Time, time is going to be your friend. My body is a total stranger to me still, the way it looks, the way it feels.. by myself and when I'm with my husband. I've battled the same "when should I stop" and kinda firmly think that a. my body is calling it, regardless of what I think, and b. I'm getting regular body comp tests done so I don't pu**** too far. Something to think about, since I know you are a routine fitness person..
Something I do, and it may sound strange.. but hey, I'm sleep deprived, it's almost 3am.. just got home from a night-time iron pour, and am ready to hit the shower and bed.. I spend a stupid amount of time in front of the mirror staring at myself and messing with my skin. I grab it, I hike it up, I look at the bones I can see.. This seems to help me understand THIS is ME. For better or worse, this is my whole package.. And, you have breasts. They look very nice in that shirt, and I'm sure once healed they look wonderful outside it too. I prefer smaller breasts on myself personally, and appreciate although they hang lower they are still pretty, and still point forward ;) Getting something as defining as your breasts altered is going to take some time to acclimate to, this is normal.. like I said, time is going to be your friend.. spend some time just looking at your new body and thinking kind thoughts. It will do wonders.
Something I do, and it may sound strange.. but hey, I'm sleep deprived, it's almost 3am.. just got home from a night-time iron pour, and am ready to hit the shower and bed.. I spend a stupid amount of time in front of the mirror staring at myself and messing with my skin. I grab it, I hike it up, I look at the bones I can see.. This seems to help me understand THIS is ME. For better or worse, this is my whole package.. And, you have breasts. They look very nice in that shirt, and I'm sure once healed they look wonderful outside it too. I prefer smaller breasts on myself personally, and appreciate although they hang lower they are still pretty, and still point forward ;) Getting something as defining as your breasts altered is going to take some time to acclimate to, this is normal.. like I said, time is going to be your friend.. spend some time just looking at your new body and thinking kind thoughts. It will do wonders.
One way to get your inner image to catch up to your real image is to have a few pictures taken and post them around the house, on the fridge, etc. so that you can constantly see yourself from outside (often what you see on pictures is different from what you see in the mirror). After a little time when you imagine yourself in your head you will see one of the pictures and it will be closer to reality.
I lost 80 lbs once (withough wls) and had a picture taken with friends, when I looked at it I cried, I couldn't believe how different (and BETTER) I looked. I had that picture stuck on my fridge, and even now (40 lbs heavier) I still think of myself as that happy skinny girl in the picture. So when I look in a mirror I am ready to cry (for a different reason!). My VSG is in a month, I hope to lose quickly enough to catch up to that image in my head.
Good luck! And as someone who never had big boobs, my reaction to your picture was "her boobs are bigger than mine AFTER the reduction!".
I lost 80 lbs once (withough wls) and had a picture taken with friends, when I looked at it I cried, I couldn't believe how different (and BETTER) I looked. I had that picture stuck on my fridge, and even now (40 lbs heavier) I still think of myself as that happy skinny girl in the picture. So when I look in a mirror I am ready to cry (for a different reason!). My VSG is in a month, I hope to lose quickly enough to catch up to that image in my head.
Good luck! And as someone who never had big boobs, my reaction to your picture was "her boobs are bigger than mine AFTER the reduction!".
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