my surgery is tomorrow and i'm a basket case....
i cannot stop crying . i'm freaking out if something happens to me and my girls 21 & 24 are left without their mother. i'm freaking out because if something happens to me my oldest, which i'm forever at odds with, won't have me here to be there for her. i'm freaking out that i won't get to see my dog for 2 days (i'm totally serious) i'm sad because my oldest didn't really seem that all concerned or worried about my surgery. i know i'm doing this for nothing but i've always been a what if person and that's all that keeps running through my head. i just can't stop crying. this is crazy. i'm crazy. i don't even care that i haven't eaten for two days. i didn't have a food funeral or anything. am i doing the right thing? what if this surgery is the wrong thing to do? this anxiety is going to kill me
You could have been me writing except I have one son as opposed to two daughters. He actually acted like I was a burden to him that he had to go with me to surgery...but in the end it was just his fear. I didn't sleep for two days before surgery and I was so anxious they knocked me out in pre-op. Guess what I thought leading up to the surgery was way tougher than anything after the surgery. You will be fine. Just follow your doctor's orders and make friends with your anesthesiologist when you get there. Let them know you are anxious and the will probably give you something to help relax you. You will be glad you did this and you will be able to be there more for your girls when you lose this weight. Hang in there and can't wait until you join us on the loser's bench.
You are totally doing the right thing! I had a rough go, and would stil do it again because it absolutely SAVED my life. Your chances of something happening are probably far greater if you don't have the surgery than if you do.
If anything goes wrong (for me, my blood pressure shot up to fatal levels), you're in the hospital already and being watched. They can take IMMEDIATE action and handle the situation. But if your obesity goes unaddressed...you're taking blind risks.
Everything will be fine. It's normal to be frightened, and normal to have doubts...but you're going to do great.
You can't worry about everyone else - and certainly not about how they feel. Take care of yourself.
Take some deep breaths and remember that you're being given the gift of a re-set. Be grateful for it. Some people never get the second chance at health that you're being given.
You need to do this for YOU. They are adult! Don't worry about them. (Like we could ever stop, I have three.) This will help make sure you will be there for maybe grandchildren one day.
My middle DD asked me yesterday what time my surgery was so she could be there. Blew my mind but, she was there when I got my band out too. The oldest was there for me when I got the band. They mature and care differently but, they love you. Most likly are just worried about you.
Who is watching your dog. Mine misses me too. She is my girls. But, Dad will be there with her.
Good luck! What you feel is normal. I will be going thru it with you.
BAND REMOVED 9-4-12-fought insurance to get sleeve and won! Sleeved 1/22/13! Five years out and trying to get that last 15 pounds back off.
Your daughter is probably worried too, and she's keeping it to herself. A few days from now you'll be able to laugh together about your worries.
Highest 303.4, Surgery 263, Current 217.8, Goal 180
you're doing the right thing!! Remember that!! 
