It's been a miserably bad week

Goes to show that even the most stubborn person that is hell bent on success can fall. I wasn't prepared for the week we've had and it definitely took a toll on me. There were days upon days of appointments regarding my husband. We found out that he's going to be in pain for the rest of his life due to his back. We were also in the air as far as if the military would keep him. (He's been wanting to finish his career, then retire.) We also just found out that we're going to PCS (permanent change of station) soon. THEN, as if that wasn't enough, my daughter has been having a lot of trouble with her ADHD meds no longer working. I've been getting A LOT of calls from the school.

I cracked. I caved. I had those couple slices of thin crust pizza on one day. I had the Japanese chicken with noodles on another day. I even let myself down and had a 1/2 of a Cadbury Cream Egg on another day. They weren't all consecutive, but they were let downs. Moments of weakness where I took the easy way out. I knew that I was sabotaging myself, and I KNEW that I would end up coming on here to post and I would have my ass handed to me. There's no excuse for the way I've been behaving and thinking. It's like being obsessed with something. I'm usually so obsessed over what I'm eating and drinking that I refuse to cheat, even when I know it's not going to completely mess me up. THEN I become rebellious. *Ding ding! ASS WHOOPINS AHOY!!*

I know it's not too late. I need to get myself in gear and start figuring out how to plan for when things just don't go right. It's easier for me to start things on a Monday. So this coming Monday, I'm going to get back to tracking, weighing, PLANNING.

Phew..I knew it wouldn't be easy. I just didn't know it would be this hard.

Sorry to hear about your husband and daughter.  Stress is the absolute worst when it comes to self medicating with food.

However, it's not the end of the world or the end of anything.  Your sleeve is going to be there to help you along forever.  Yes, you need to make the best of it, but beating yourself up for being human isn't helpful.  Keep your focus on progress, not perfection.

You want to do this and you will.  The rewards far outweigh all of the cadbury eggs in the world!!!

No ass kicking from me, although it is good exercise....

Awww, Laura!  That' just stickiness on top of more stickiness. I'm so sorry!  And no judgment here -- I've doe te same and probably will again. As fad as I'm concerned it just means we're human. So cut yourself a break, take a luxurious bath, lonf shower, or trip to Star$$$ to get away from it all and have a skinny vanilla latte!

 

Big hugs!

Rough times! But I know you will get through this. Do what you can and then let God. Something someone told me that I try to remember when hard times come around and I feel out of control--" think, if it isn't hunger, food won't fix it anyway". Hang in there- we're rooting for you and your family

Sorry your having such a hard time.  Make sure you show up here on Monday to let us know you carried thru. 

Some weeks are just like that. I'm sorry about ur stress but you haven't damaged anything. You had a moment of weakness a few times and, like the previous post said, you are human! It happens and will happen again. If ur anything like me, before the sleeve, that kind of stress would have turned into all week calorie fest!! I would have gone from one fast food joint to another eating all my feelings. You had ur few moments, recognized them and now ur back on track. Good job! No real harm done!

First of all...

*BIG HUGS*

Second of all... I don't need to dish out an ass whopping. You already have done that to yourself. The problem is it clearly isn't what you need or you wouldn't be rebelling.

That said you are waiting till Monday but that isn't carte blanche to be over the top on a Saturday or Sunday either right?

So I am going to do something else entirely:

You are a strong, wonderful, capable woman who has given of her time to her husband and her daughter this week. You chose to slip on the banana peels a bit but you know what you did, and you know what you are capable of really accomplishing so today is a new day... Every day is a new day. You know you can plan, and make this work.

You are also clearly past the rebellion stage if you are owning up to it.

The food didn't make the world all shiny and happy because your week continued the way it was... But at the end of the week you have guilt and remorse form that. Remove the food issues, and refocus in a positive manner and then a bad week is just a bad week instead of being a bad week you feel guilty about.

Maybe a non-food related pampering is needed. A soak in the tub... pedicure... something little for yourself like a book, or a new top... Just something else to do instead of turning to food.

*MORE BIG HUGS*

Shell

Thanks everyone. When I said I was going to start on Monday, it didn't mean I was going to go hog wild this weekend. It's just easier to track my routines on a Monday. (I'm weirdly OCD about starting things on an off day.) I've been sticking to plan today and plan on it tomorrow as well. I think I will have the hitch in my giddyup on Monday. Tonight, hubby's taking me on a date, so it's really changing my mood. :)

Really sorry to hear about your struggles - these times, when things all pile up on once, can be more to bear sometimes.  I have some unsolicited advice for you (sorry), and the first one is the big one:

If you're sincere about getting back on plan, you do it right now, this second.  You don't wait to start until Monday, so you have two more days to sabotage yourself, grow more regrets about food you shouldn't eat, feel a deeper level of failure and shame, which will only take you longer to come out of.  You are worthy to love yourself, so commit now, and not "Monday" or some other time.  That's what we used to say when we dieted without the sleeve - "oh... I'll start after the weekend, or the holiday, or whatever convenient thing, because I'm not ready to let go of food yet".  Decide you're letting go of food as an emotional crutch now.  Even if you know you eat poorly (and I have my days every so often), never stop recording or weighing - that's when it becomes super easy to lie to yourself.  If you eat poorly, own it, weigh yourself the next day and record those calories so you know what you are doing.

Also... where are you getting this food?  Especially a Cadbury egg?  I'm assuming it's around your house and you had easy access to it, not that you drove to the store to pick that up.  If you have trigger foods around you, get them the heck out of your house, especially when you're in high-stress mode.  I know if I'm stressing out, I throw any carby snacks that I have (that normally I portion out well on maintenance) in the trash - otherwise, that entire bag will be in my body by the end of the evening.

Also enlist your family to help you monitor yourself.  You are trying to help your husband with his back, and your daughter with her attention, and you deserve in return to receive help.  When you're stressed out, ask them to help you keep yourself on plan.  Ask them to recognize and cheer you on for good eating.  If they see you eating junk, don't have them admonish you, but have them ask if you wrote that food down in your journal.

Good luck on your journey.

Thanks Ruggie. That is some great advice and it's very much so true. I didn't realize how much I would tell myself "OH I'll do it Monday" and it wouldn't happen. The Cadbury egg was picked up when I got a protein shake on the run. I was ashamed of the slip and didn't tell anyone besides you guys. The pizza happened because I showed up from appointments early before hubby and the kids could fini**** (He never gets more than the 3 of them can eat because he knows what it does.) He's doing his best to help keep me accountable. It's my responsibility, though. So I can't really blame him on that. Thanks again! I never consider advice unsolicited on here. :)