Just try on the clothes!!
I have a couple bags of clothes a friend passed to me, mostly size 14 and 12. For whatever reason, even though I purchased myself size 14 shorts, I didn't connect that I could probably fit into her clothes (probably because I saw her in these clothes and never considered her to be overweight). Today I got out the bag. When I held them up to me, I thought there was no way any of the pants would fit. Then I started trying things on. The 12s are still a bit tight (but I can button them), and the 14s fit, some are even a little baggy.
This is just a reminder that your perception is not reality, and the only way to know is to try the clothes on. Do it, with regularity, or you'll miss your "window" to wear things!!!
That connection is so important- I was disconnected from shopping in 90% of stores because of my size, so I was opting out. I am seeking out ways to remind myself of what's happening and fully experience the transition.
I took a tour through my closet of the clothes I've loved two weeks after surgery to prepare for an important meeting planned for my first week back. They're all 20's and some looked better than ever and some looked too big on me. I tried on everything I've been holding onto, to see it in the mirror and remember the commitment I've made. For the outfit, I finally settled on a blazer I had tried on a month before my surgery that was tight across my shoulders- no way it would fit. It now has 3" to spare where the buttons overlap, it's roomy and comfortable and I look great in it!
I remembered where I bought things, and the memories of wearing them- realizing I need to let go of them and my past as well. Forgive and let go...
I went shopping this last week and tried on fitted jackets. In my mind I was thinking "dont even try something less than 18, both arms won't get in!" I searched for a size 16- fits perfect! 14- give it a few weeks! I'm really trying hard to see and allow myself to experience every moment of this transformation and live it fully!