Revised goal, bra fittings - basically musings
I've officially changed my ticker. I've decided my new goal is 133.5 pounds which puts me at having lost 50% of my body weight. I kind of get a kick out of eventually being able to say that I'm half the person I was. My weight loss is pretty steady at this point, and I'm feeling confident that I can get to this goal. Although, in my head, I feel like it's so small I'll never get there. That's the old me, and I'm telling her to shut up. As Elina says, the goal weight isn't permanent. I'm choosing to get to this goal, see how I feel, and then readjust accordingly. It's a journey.
At support group last night, we had a bra fitter. I've never had the confidence to have someone fit me for a bra, and I know I really needed someone to, so I did it. I'm a 32D. Me - a 32 band size! WTF? Even the bra fitter was surprised bc she wasn't sure she had any 32s for me to try on. She told me I was tiny. Another "who, me?" moment. I'm not tiny, but it was a definite highlight of the meeting for me. Another highlight was woman, who I adore and admire, told me that I have an amazing smile, and I'm so put together and classy. I usually feel like a nerd who just loves clothes, so that was very kind.
I baked these extraordinary looking and smelling chocolate chunk cookies this week for my boss' birthday and my baby girl's daycare provider since she started Montessori school this week. I didn't eat even one. I didn't sample the batter, I didn't taste a cookie. I don't even want to. I want my goal more than the cookie. I keep repeating what a person from support group said to me - it's not like I will never eat another cookie, I'm just choosing right now to not eat that cookie. Having these thoughts not be absolutes help put it in perspective. My goal is more important, and my sanity, frankly, since sugar makes me nuts.
Thanks for reading :)
Your post "sounds" very positive - I love it! Congrats on the 32 bra band size (and, uh, keeping the girls...I'm a D now and that's only going to go down). Great job on resisting the cookies.
Lindsay ~ 5'4" ~ HW (5/6/13): 280 ~ SW (5/17/13): 273 ~ CW: 140
Losses by month: pre-op: -8 M1: -18 M2: -12 M3: -13 M4: -9 M5: -10 M6: -12 M7: -14 M8: -12 M9: -2 M10: -8 M11: -9 M12: -2 M13: -6 M14: -7
You are doing amazing, I follow you on MFP. Your post got me to thinking about my goal.. currently it's 110.. but I'm not sure I really want to be there...(I'm 9 months out), I'm still walking daily and have started a little weight training; I feel great, and I look great (in clothing of course..lol), I'm starting to get the "don't lose any more" comments; which I don't pay attention.. I'm just mulling it all over. My surgeon wouldn't discuss a goal weight with me; she said she's more interested in why I got to be the weight I was, and wants me to work on that (the head part), my NUT, said it's more about where I feel good and healthy rather than a number. So today I'm at 149, at 5'0", and 49 years old, the BMI chart has me as a BMI of 29.1, and overweight. While I'm thinking to get to 140, which if you go by a BMI chart (outdated crap), I would be at a BMI of 27.3, and still be overweight. If I want to be "normal" on the chart I would need to get to 128lbs (highest), which would then give me a 25 BMI and in the normal range. hmmmmm still mulling this all over. Great job on the no cookies!!
Your goal weight doesn't have to be permanent. If you don't want to be 110, then you don't need to go there. Don't tell yourself short if that is actually what you want, though. I chose 150 to begin with bc it's my wedding weight and the smallest I'd ever been as an adult, also it's the upper range of a healthy BMI for my height. You can do whatever you want to :)
Yeah, I get the "you don't need to lose anymore weight. You're skinny. Now here's a slice of pizza" comments. I let them roll off me like water and politely decline the pizza. Hahaha
