I see me...........(cross post from VSGMG)

I hope I'll always me able to see me...and remember that IS me...and not judge.  Because I'm pretty sure that no matter how thin I get, there will always be a fat person screaming to try and get out.  It's the nature of the chronic eating disorder:  always there, under the surface, waiting for a ***** in my armor.  But now I have great tools to keep that armor in place. 

Thanks, Frisco

Sad but true. I was at a party last night. It was truly the first time I walked into a party with confidence since I was 25 years old (I'm 52 now). I used to think about how I was the fattest person at the party. I even mentioned it to my friends last night. It felt SO GOOD to know I wasn't the fattest person there.

I want everyone I see who is "me" to feel like I feel now.

Mixed emotions, I understand.

so true Frisco! I still feel like the morb obese in the room even after losing over 90 pounds.

Frisco, I see me everywhere I go and sometimes it just breaks my heart.  So often I want to go up to someone and tell them about my transformation, but of course, I don't do it.  The pain and discomfort of those around me is more obvious to me than it ever was before.  Thank you for this great post. 

It is heartbreaking.  That's the appropriate word for it.

"There, but for the Grace of God (Higher Power), go I".

Wonderful and thoughtful post, Frisco! Thank you.

Yes, I see me every day and everywhere. I have learned to wish them all a silent "Good Luck" and hope that they find what I have found.

That is great, Kairk!  I am going to start doing that.

In the 12-Step rooms, they say, "There, but for the Grace of God (Higher Power), go I".

I don't see me. That IS me. I can honestly say I don't see this in others. How self centered am I to think that I am the only one.