Flip Flopping before VSG?? Did others do this?
I never second guessed my decision but I can relate to feeling "deprived". I had my surgery in October so when Thanksgiving rolled around I was still not up to eating too much in one sitting or even very many solids. Thanksgiving is my FAVORITE holiday because it falls right around my birthday and I just generally love the fall and the FOOD lol. I remember sitting at Thanksgiving dinner with my family and being miserable because I couldn't eat the stuffing and the green bean casserole or the pie etc etc.
Almost two years later, I'm much thinner, healthier, AND happier. That Thanksgiving is a fleeting memory now. I've learned how to enjoy social occasions without so much focus on the food (or drink). I also enjoy cooking so I experiment a lot with new flavors, spices, meats, etc.
Also, and I may get flamed for this, don't think about not being able to have a drink with your friends next year. You will still have fun and one day you will still be able to enjoy a drink or two. You do have to be careful with alcohol because it affects us quicker. But try not to let it become all doom and gloom. You will still have fun and I bet you will be feeling so happy and awesome! Good luck!
band to sleeve revision and loving life!
You do you, and I'll do me
It's not easy at first, but gets better with time! :)
band to sleeve revision and loving life!
You do you, and I'll do me
I am currently doing that also., mine's on a daily basis. In order for my insurance to cover my vsg, I have to gain weight. Putting on the last 20lbs has been horrible, I have never tried to gain weight in all my life. I feel so sick, I feel embarrassed, and I am still flip flopping on my decision, and then I have to hold this weight until the date of surgery. My consult is this Friday and my seminar on Wednesday. I have 5 children, I am not extremely huge, but huge enough for it to effect my daily life. My normal weight is 190ish--I usually will stay between 180-200, constantly going up and down. I am the forever yoyo, but I completely get what you're going through. I am actually rather healthy, yes I have back problems, but I am still able to run, jump etc. So that also plays into my going back and forth on such a big decision. The only time I have gotten my body to go to 155 is when I was working out 4 hrs a day and starving myself, that was 10 years ago, I got down to 170 prior to my last child, after having her I got back down to 180, and then started my yoyoing. i am worried about being sick from the surgery, it becoming problematic, or having health issues as a result. I get in tears thinking about it. But I am also in tears about not having the energy that I need to keep up with the kids, and my addiction to food. I have been on every diet imaginable, even ones I've made up. It never lasts. Then I think "what if something bad happens and I make a mess out of my life, just because I want to look better, and why can't I just accept myself as the way I am and be happy about it" i won't go to waterparks, boating, just getting out I am embarrased. Then I go to the other side, "what if this is just what I need, I will be such a better mother, such a better example, what if this will change my life for the good, what if I am happier, that also will change everyone's life around me" I figured i would just go to my consult, hoping I can talk myself into just doing it. I am so disappointed in myself. I hate having to even think about weight, or what I eat. In order to stay smaller I normally have to keep my diet at less that 1000 cals/day. That is hard to keep up without any tools, but anyways, sorry for the ramble, but I get you..what an emotional roller coaster!
I'm still preop, and I did have one time when I thought I should give it one more weight loss stab. Then I got real. If I had been successful with any of the forty bazillion previous stabs, I wouldn't be considering WLS now. How many more "stabs" is enough? I decided that I was done stabbing without the advantage of WLS. With that advantage on board, I will succeed this time!
~Jan