Emotional Eating~Why?

Thanks so much Terry! Its good to know that I'm not alone. When I look at it you're right~I was abusing myself with food~but why on earth would I want to abuse myself when I was mad at someone else??? I don't know the answer to that question, but it's certainly something to think about! I am thankful that wls has made the abuse on a much smaller scale like you said~we just don't have the room for much food, good or bad. You're so right about people not looking at thin people buying candy or going to the buffet line~I've noticed how differently I am treated now and sometimes it makes me angry with society. Anyway, glad things are going well for you today! Its going better here too~I'm back on track today and not stressed out, thank goodness!!!!!!! Hugs, Tracy B

Yet another interesting post to read. I can relate to much of all that's been said. I was just at the store last night buying some chocolate bars and snack cookies. Cookies for the kids but the chocolate bars were for me. Standing there thinking why am I doing this? Am I trying to sabatoge myself. I had been struggling for several hours before. Should I get the candy bars? Should I not? Seriously, it's all I was thinking about. I think about 2 weeks before my cycle this happens. At least I've pinpointed that much huh? I do remember standing in line and thinking at least I'm not huge anymore and people wont look at me wierd for buying 2 boxes of cookies and 2 packages of mini candy bars. Felt guilty thinking about them, then buying them and of course eating them. Now the next morning they are ALL gone and I feel like such a loser for eating them.

I know what you mean about how you feel the next morning~I felt guilty and pretty much like crap (not sure if that was mental crap, physical crap or both!) I guess we can't be perfect all of the time, but I hate giving in to my bad urges to eat when I'm upset~it just makes no sense! I also know what you mean about people not looking at me the same when I'm buying candy now as they did when I was 328lbs~society shouldn't be that way, but I've found since losing the weight that most of society really does look at things that way~sad, but true. I can honestly say that I do NOT judge people by their weight, although my heart does go out to so many people when I see them struggle~I want to give them a big hug and tell them that there's a better way, but of course that's not socially acceptable either! Anyway, good luck and thanks for assuring me that I'm not alone in the struggle! Tracy B