I AM THE OH FLUNKIE!!

THE TRUTH IS OUT!!  I HAVE OFFICIALLY COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT I STINK AT WEIGHT LOSS.  I READ ABOUT WHAT I NEED TO DO; WHAT OTHERS HAVE DONE; I JUST CANNOT FIND THE FORMULA FOR ME!!  IT'S EMBARRASING(sp) TO SAY THE LEAST!!  I'VE BEEN TRACKING MY INTAKE FOR 3 WEEKS; KEPT MY PROTEIN UP OVER 60 GRAMS; I'VE BEEN EXERCISING ON THE ELLIPTICAL 4 DAYS A WEEK AND I CANNOT GET THE SCALE TO MOVE.  I'VE GAINED 30# AND WAS NEVER AT GOAL TO BEGIN WITH.   I can't hide it anymore.  I can feel my friends stare at my failure.  I'm embarressed to seek help and now I've decided that today is the day I will tell the OH world my delima.   Monday I am going to try to the 5 day pouch test; stop the carbs.  Today I've increased by exercise to 45 min and I will attempt that 5X this week.  I'm also water logged.   I guess I'm telling all of you this cuz I need to tell someone my plan and get some support. Thanks for letting me vent Penny

(((Hugs Penny))))) It sounds like you have a good plan in place to me!!!! That's one of the hardest parts to figure out. Keep doing all of the good things you've been doing and you'll get there!! Don't think people are looking at you as a failure either~I'm sure even though you're not exactly where you want to be, you are much healthier and lighter now than you were before wls. Hang in there and keep us posted on your progress!

Awww...Penny... :::C'mere and gimme a hug:::: You poor thing!  Stop beating yerself up...that leaves bruises!  I'm with you...I'm trying to lose some holiday weight that I gain every winter around the holidays. I'm just not going to my mom's for more than a week at a time...That woman just wants to feed me. and I am helpless at her house cause mama can COOK!!!  And she's this little itty bitty Italian lady who never weighed more than 128lbs her entire life...(I got the bottom heavy Hungarian genes from my dad) Thanks DADDY!  I noticed you and I were 315 when we had our surgery. I also noticed that most people lose about 100 lbs with RNY.  Well, that leave us heavy weights at about 200...and so when I made my personal goal 165 lbs, I also gave myself  cap...I allowed myself to get to no more than 175 lbs if I did gain.  I I think I always knew I would...I passed that and got up to 178lbs this holiday...So I was pretty upset with myself too...I could easily gain 30 lbs right now. I know I could. Like Tracy said...It would be sooooo easy to just give up...But we can't do that. So we're gonna hold yer hand here and you do that 5 DPT...I've been done several days now and I'm still retaining what I learned about myself. I lost 4 lbs...But started my monthy moon cycle...and so I'm feeling a 2 lb swelling...that is normally 4-5...So that's encouraging!  I planned most of my meals days ahead and my snacks too...that REALLY helps! This way I pick what I will munch on rather than scavenger for food...I give myself several choices that range from crunchy to sweet to sour!   I won't make this longer...but I will tell you that YOU CAN DO IT!!!! And I am glad you finally reached out and let your friends help you take a bite outta that burden...WLS friends don't mind sharing those kinda (burden) calories!  They can be dangerous when you gotta swallow that by yourself.  Stay and post and share.  We all learn from the good and the bad stuff. Hugs Anita

Penny, I just looked at the picture of you and your daughter, and you are beautiful!  Don't be so terribly hard on yourself.  Try to remember where you came from.  That is what I try to do.  It sure is scary, but we have to keep trying.  I personally know that I have to move more, exercise.  I am not a tone as I would like to be, and I think that would help.  You keep your chin up!!!  Never, Never, Never give up!!!

Hey, "vent away"--that's what we're here for, and I've done some venting myself! I SO get what you're saying.  I, too, have had some re-gain problems.  My lowest weight was 155, but I bounced up to 160 for a long time and kind of consider that to be my optimum weight (even though I realize that that weight is still "overweight".  Then, gradually, I started inching upwards and ended up at 192 right after the holidays this year.  I couldn't believe I was letting this happen, and believe me, it was ALL my fault--poor choices, grazing, slacking way off from exercising--the whole 9 yards.  I am NOT giving up!  I have done pretty well during the mo. of Jan. in getting back to the way I should be eating, choice-wise and portion-wise, and I've done a good job of eliminating MOST of the grazing episodes.  I also got back to working out (5-6 days/wk.), which is really key for me.  I've managed to get down to 183.  I know I will always struggle.  I didn't have my wls until I was 54, so I had/have many decades of horrific habits and eating patterns to deal with.  I don't dump on anything--unfortunately. I totally understand your feeling that everyone is looking at  and judging you.   (For quite awhile, I could convince myself that the amount I'd re-gained wasn't noticeable, but by the time I had gained 30 lbs., geez, can you spell d-e-n-i-a-l??)  The truth of the matter is that people probably weren't/aren't nearly as focused on me as I fear, but I really DO understand how you feel! Don't give up!  I looked at the photo of you & your precious little girl on your profile page, and you are beautiful!  Keep hanging out here on the Grads board; you will get a lot of support and ideas!  So many of us have the same struggles you are having, and even those who AREN'T, are very, very supportive, helpful, and motivating! Consider yourself hugged! Jo

I for one am very proud of you for "coming out" and stepping forward.  I think youll do this!! GO GO GO GO

If you need a daily support "buddy" then here's my email address: [email protected] I'm SO ready to support and get support, too I'm feeling the same way you are I did do the 5dpt last week and lost 6# I'm going to start incorporating the "liquids" into my diet once every 2 weeks just to create a "breaking" point of carb intake/sugar intake I need help too but here's HUGS for you Penny! Don't feel as if you failed. You are a SUCCESS.

Good luck ……we’ll be rooting for you!!!!! Scott

Dont feel alone.

I started at 380 and got to 180. That was good for my height. I am 5'9.

I am now at 230 and have been for 1.5 years. the weight came on due to my lack of something, plus ihad no support, my doc does not do this no more, so no local support groups either, had no nutritional counseling. he basically cut me open and threw me out the door.

i am going to try the 5dpt next week. i need a week to mentally get into that mode. i exercise 5 days a week, basically eat very little carbs, and im up on all my other stuff now that ive been reading for months.

hope to get back to 180 by June.

email me if you want to chat. i could use a buddy also.

Cheryl

i,for one, am proud of you for "coming out"! i am in the same mindset except that i just finished eating two pieces of hearty rye toast smothered in i can't believe it's not butter and have no plans of the 5 day test this week- i am such a failure that i can't even pull that off-yet! yesterday; i found a size 14 cordurouy blazer in the garage in a box- i was so tickled to find it-that i hadn't given it to goodwill- and when i tried it on it almost fit-the sleeves were tight-but it fit--so i am not doing so badly as i think i am-- i don't exercise any more and i am not careful any more of what goes in-well i am to a point-so hey-there is hope! penny- step back and look at the whole picture--and give yourself huge hugs...we are in this together--i just looked at your profile- i think i remember when you rolled over-girl--you overcome so much--you are a wife and mom and those are enormous undertakings! (my kids have kids i'm so old!)--you are a professional- and maybe the nurse in you is what is causing you problems? or maybe life just got in the way and the "easy" way for both of us is to eat the damned carbs....that's my story--well that and i am an emotional/stress eater and i swear to goodness i cannot take much more stress and then-boom- here comes more... penny--vent away darlin and then smack me please cuz you are not alone...and you can do this --and i'll watch so that i can get my stuff together to do it too!!!!!!!! ok- maybe i am making light of this and i am sorry- you have valid  concerns and thoughts- and i feel your pain on this one...but you are NOT alone- and you know what to do to get it back together--and that includes NOT comparimg yourself with others!!!!!!!!!!! hugs from ohio--it's 34* and the sun isn't out yet--well- i think it is but hiding! margo