Do you ever just not care?

I was wondering if I am the only one who feels like this. Do you ever get tired of having to watch what we eat?....count calories...exercise....discpline ourselves....What is really sick about this is from where I have come from with my weight. Why or how could I think this way when I usd to weigh 465 pounds, be practically bedridden, walk with a walker, be on oxygen, 14 medicines, C-PAP machine, leg lymphedema, etc. How sick is that when I know what gluttony did to me!!! I guess I just needed to confess these feelings and hear any feedback anyone might have for me. Do I just need a good slap up side the head or is this something that others have felt at almost 3 years out? Is this why so many gain back some weight? I don't want to do that! Thanks for listening! God bless!
Love, Cindy

OMG YES!  In terms of losing or maintaining weight, I find that the latter is much, much harder.  I have let myself go for a few months at a time and i only have a few extra pounds and tighter clothes as the result.  I am and will always be a food-aholic and need my own version of a 12-step program (protein, excercise, water) in order to mfaintain my new found slimness.  It's hard work and always will be, but I hope never to return to the fat me.

 No I don't get tired. I hate where I was.  I just accept this as part of my life.
I get tired of occasional puking though. 
I think you just have to express your feelings and move o n. As long as you stick to the program you are ok, its not feeling feelings that cause problems. And its not sick either. Its how you feel....and at 3 years out it is still a newer way of living. At least it is for me, 45 years the old way of eating!!
Its when you give in to those feelings and allow yourself to go back to old habits and eating that  causes problems. There is a difference.
You've come a long way...keep up the good work!!

Yes, I do sometimes. Sometimes I just don't want to have to think about it. I wish I was one of those people who practiced good health as a matter of habit, one of those people who are drawn to healthy food and who don't have problems with impulses. Obviously, I'm not--that's how I got to almost 300 pounds. I'm trying to raise my child differently, so that she can make good choices as a matter of course, so that she sees her health as something that is daily treasued and maintained--but not a drudge. Occassionally I just eat what I want or take a day off of exercising, but I work daily to live a healthy life. I don't "diet" and I don't workout as a fanatic. I live in a healthy way. Sometimes that's hard. Sometimes my past habits are a struggle. But I want to live for a long time and do what I want to do without significant health issues. Since I'm not one of those people who learned and/or practiced these healthy behaviors when I was younger, I'm having to learn them now, and it's harder when you're older... Does that make sense?

I wouldn't think you have to watch what you eat every day, especially as you are likely to eat pretty much the same way for a while.  I do think, however, we can drift away from the correct path by snacking a little more, letting portions grow by not measuring, etc.  Then you get into trouble.

For me, if there is a party or something, I just eat what I want and try all the goodies.  The next day, things can return to normal and I'll have a salad or something.

I don't recall having the "I don't care" attitude towards my food.  BUT sometimes I think "Boy, I would just love to have ONE meal where I could eat whatever I wanted."  And I ask myself, "What would that one meal be?"  Or if I could eat one dessert, just one without fear of getting sick, what would that be?

My boyfriend said it's kind of foolish to think like that since I can't... And states that even if I COULD, I probably WOULDN'T.  I am so adjusted to my eating lifestyle, and to take the dumping syndrome and restriction away for one meal, well I would be reminded of all the habits that I have put into place and still make a better choice than I used to prior to surgery.  I don't know about all that...  but sometimes I sure would just like to sit down and enjoy one more hot fudge cake! LOL.  Life is so much better for me now, and its worth the sacrifices.

BUT I can also see that further down the road, I'm just 22 mos postop, it could get to where I am tired at times and don't want to keep on counting stuff.  You have surely come a long way. I looked at your profile, and WOW!  You are a beautiful woman who has accomplished so very much! 

Yes, somedays I want to not worry about what I am eating.  So today, I bought donuts for the staff in the office.  I am 32 months post op and right now, my gut is cramping and gurgling and nearly retching over a plain cake donut because I don't eat sugar and it is in absolute rebellion.

It takes once to remind me, I am different.  I am special.  I deserve to take care of me.


I think of the other things in life I do because it is good for me.  This is silly, but I hate taking off my make up at night.  I am 49 freaking years old and know it is the cleanliness part of life, but some days I act like a petulant five year who doesn't want to wash  her face.  So I do it.  Eating right is less rebellious for me.  We all have our moments.

Think the thoughts, stomp yoru feet, and do it anyway!

Hugs.
Vicky

I believe that for me it's all about training. I've sized my portions to the point that I can tell within a half an ounce what I'm getting. I eat all my protein first and I have a water bottle in my hand all day long and drink it like a habit...glancing at the watch when I'm done with food to be sure I don't gulp for a half hour...little cheater sips are one thing but gulps are not allowed.

That being said, while we were away from home for two weeks in Montana I didn't count. I didn't do anything but eat my protein first. I had burgers WITH the bun (well, most of it) and I actually ate two pieces of pizza...I did drink beer (one night,  got totally wasted) so I was nearly afraid to get on the scale when I got home.

But you know what? it was a bit comforting to come home and get back into the routine of logging all my food again. I lost between a pound and a pound and a half on vacation so I know that if I don't log my food I'm gonna look like a stick figure. The same could happen to someone who goes the other way...

I never ever want food to control my life so I control it. portion, timing, logging...

I am seven years out, and yes, without a doubt I get sick and tired of worrying about everything I consume.  I guess this is the way it must be, but I don't have to like it.  When I am being "good" you can't find any fault with my eating or exercising.  However, I do stray, and this is why I am constantly and I mean constantly worrying about my eating.  I exercise, weight lift and worry about food all of the time.  I have other bypass friends who say I am obsessed, but I don't want to gain back my weight.  I have gained some, and I don't want to slide back up there.  I vote YES, I am tired of worrying about every single bite of food and whether is is the correct ratio of protein versus carbs versus fat.  I would like to sit down and order from a menu at a restaurant without worrying if it will make me sick, how many calories I will consume or if my husband will care to take the remainder of it to work tomorrow for his lunch.  I would like to be "normal," but that is not in my cards, and it will never be.  I will continue to worry, but again, I don't have to like it.

I have brief periods when I'm working out or wishing I could have a cupcake, wishing I didn't have to live this way. But then I'll see something that makes me remember how it used to be, an old picture of myself or a woman who's the size I was, and it makes me think it's all worth it, so the bad feelings go away. I don't know about everybody else, but I really don't have to deprive myself that much, but I guess you always want what you can't have. :)